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So I suffered long term reoccurring trauma as a child and into my my teen years. Fear so bad that I always felt like I was going to die as that’s maybe because I’ve had my head bashed into walls and physically and sexually and emotionally abused even had a knife held to my throat by my own mother telling me she was going to kill me because I wanted butter on my toast. I’m 34 now doing ok but let me tell you I’ve been through therapy with countless different types of them and the drugs they’ve had me on were such high doses it actually created its own physical health problems with me which were counter productive. I’ve self medicated with these drugs and Then some at both high and low doses. From personal experience with lsd in high doses(only because I had gel tabs and you can’t really alter the dose) .. well let’s just say I saw the universe below me and had outer body experiences.. I can say for a short time until my next trip that I found new appreciation for life itself and I wasn’t so angry or afraid but after a while that wore off. Mushrooms on the other hand in small doses were amazing... I laughed so hard and just was able to be free and live like My past didn’t exist and I wasn’t scared of things like I normally would of been or reacted crazy like I have in the past because I felt threatened in such a small way. In high doses (like eating an eighth) I would melt into myself and found the darkest corners o didn’t want to be at. I even became Cheshire the cat with only my head floating.. MDMA was great tried it twice but the hangover was miserable. It was like I had all my happiness sucked out of me again. Salvia was interesting but more paralyzing for 20 seconds or so.. DMT now that’s another world.. it was like living as I was glass breaking through dimensions all the while everything around me was like a kaleidoscope. Only took one hit lasted for a minute or so. I think mushrooms and lsd in very very low doses as a prescription would do more good than any of the others I’ve had experience with. I wish there were more studies on those. I know it is in some state but it’s only for terminally ill patients. Which is unfortunate because it could do some great healing with proper dose and a good Psychologist... not a therapist or a special hypnosis one (that crap doesn’t work) Psychiatrists just give you meds and don’t really help you through anything.. . the only person who has ever slightly helped me was a psychologist.. some great people there, they are just so extremely expensive! Wish I had the capacity to go to school for it. Studying is hard with Ptsd.. it’s even harder to hold a job to afford good treatment and function “normal” in society. It just sucks