![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
& another year goes by :)
i don't really have much else to say about it. today's been really cool. my friend got me night in the woods and i played an hour of it-- the sound design is incredible. i love it. got some work done too, which is always good. i probably could've done more, but then again it is my birthday, so. today as a whole has been pretty chill.
anyway, i'm going to post a bunch of quotes i found from various places on the internet that hit me hard for some reason (and which i have basically nowhere else to put):
(don't judge me for my sources lmao)
(the first two are from https://archiveofourown.org/works/7947121/chapters/23727234#workskin and the second two are from https://www.polygon.com/2020/1/7/21043182/neon-genesis-evangelion-netflix-anime-meaning-bible-depression-sexuality)
i don't really have much else to say about it. today's been really cool. my friend got me night in the woods and i played an hour of it-- the sound design is incredible. i love it. got some work done too, which is always good. i probably could've done more, but then again it is my birthday, so. today as a whole has been pretty chill.
anyway, i'm going to post a bunch of quotes i found from various places on the internet that hit me hard for some reason (and which i have basically nowhere else to put):
- “I hardly know. Sometimes hope looks like a glorious vision, a world made whole, glimpsed for a moment as though through shifting clouds. But I think there are other times when hope doesn’t look like anything at all. Not the certainty of doom, not the promise of healing. And you go on anyway, without that vision. You go on."
- “What, you find that revelation less... revelatory?” Annatar shrugged. “I have spent more than five minutes in Middle-Earth.” “And your notions of doing the right thing,” returned Celebrimbor, with an entirely straight face, “were not altogether above critique, as I recall.” “And that is the point,” said Fingolfin, sober and undeterred. “We don’t get to stop trying. Not while the world lasts.”
- Asuka has always coped with anger, but let me ask a rhetorical question: What’s the real point of anger? So often it is unproductive. It maims. It hurts. It causes more strife. So what possible good could there be for it? In truth, the real point of anger is to fight for selfhood. It is the engine of our bodies. It is the thing that allows us to power our autonomy.
- So Asuka’s journey is not understanding that “anger is wrong”; it is coming to simply understand that like all powerful things, anger must be aimed humanely, especially when aiming at ourselves. We cannot self-hate. No, our anger must be a passion that ignites and fights for justice. And there is a very powerful way this realization ties into Asuka’s understanding of her original demons.
(don't judge me for my sources lmao)
(the first two are from https://archiveofourown.org/works/7947121/chapters/23727234#workskin and the second two are from https://www.polygon.com/2020/1/7/21043182/neon-genesis-evangelion-netflix-anime-meaning-bible-depression-sexuality)
Loving my Life
Mar. 15th, 2020 05:27 pm Exactly what the title says. I'm just in a really good mood today-- everything feels like it's coming together, even though it really isn't. School got canceled for two weeks in an effort to delay the spread of the coronavirus (which I was mad about at first, but it makes sense, and it also means that I'll have time to catch up on work and independently study more before AP testing). I just tried a new avocado-and-scrambled-eggs recipe and am Loving It™. I also hung out with the boyfriend (which makes me sound like a boomer?) for a few hours, which was nice. It's beautiful out today-- sunny, and warm but not too warm-- and also pretty deserted, unsurprisingly. I don't really miss school yet, but I'm sure I will in another week or so.
We also started reading The Scarlet Letter in school. My teacher said it would be surprising to find out who Pearl's father was, but it seems really obvious to me and my friends. Like, he is not subtle. I'm also the only one of the people I've talked to about it who likes him (even though he is being a hypocrite). As an aside, I really love the way the author writes-- it's so fun to read? It just makes the text feel so much more multilayered, and it's really satisfying to go back through the paragraphs to look for hidden meanings or things I missed. It has more of a vibe than straight-up narrative, if that makes sense. I also love the supplemental readings we do. I feel this with all my classes to an extent, but AP Lang genuinely makes me feel like I'm a better person for having taken it, even though that probably sounds stupid (specific/relevant articles --> knowing more --> feeling more aware about the world, if that makes sense). In conclusion: I love this class.
Also, my birthday's coming up, which is weird for me because my parents are asking me about what I want and most of what I'd like is a few specific books (which I'm not going to get, since they don't like buying books, and I'd feel odd asking my friends to get me stuff). I wouldn't mind getting Life is Strange 2 either, but I wouldn't be able to play it until summer, or at least after AP testing. I'll probably ask for clothes again, to be honest.
I am really loving this avocado-and-eggs recipe. I don't know how to describe it besides that it tastes gorgeous (weird adjective, but y'know). It's the one at https://www.tasteofhome.com/recipes/avocado-scrambled-eggs/, but with one or two dashes of red pepper (for half the stated recipe) instead of a measured amount of black. It's awesome.
Anyway, to close this off, here are some cool songs I've been listening to:
We also started reading The Scarlet Letter in school. My teacher said it would be surprising to find out who Pearl's father was, but it seems really obvious to me and my friends. Like, he is not subtle. I'm also the only one of the people I've talked to about it who likes him (even though he is being a hypocrite). As an aside, I really love the way the author writes-- it's so fun to read? It just makes the text feel so much more multilayered, and it's really satisfying to go back through the paragraphs to look for hidden meanings or things I missed. It has more of a vibe than straight-up narrative, if that makes sense. I also love the supplemental readings we do. I feel this with all my classes to an extent, but AP Lang genuinely makes me feel like I'm a better person for having taken it, even though that probably sounds stupid (specific/relevant articles --> knowing more --> feeling more aware about the world, if that makes sense). In conclusion: I love this class.
Also, my birthday's coming up, which is weird for me because my parents are asking me about what I want and most of what I'd like is a few specific books (which I'm not going to get, since they don't like buying books, and I'd feel odd asking my friends to get me stuff). I wouldn't mind getting Life is Strange 2 either, but I wouldn't be able to play it until summer, or at least after AP testing. I'll probably ask for clothes again, to be honest.
I am really loving this avocado-and-eggs recipe. I don't know how to describe it besides that it tastes gorgeous (weird adjective, but y'know). It's the one at https://www.tasteofhome.com/recipes/avocado-scrambled-eggs/, but with one or two dashes of red pepper (for half the stated recipe) instead of a measured amount of black. It's awesome.
Anyway, to close this off, here are some cool songs I've been listening to:
Songs I Like: Ballad of Maxwell Demon
Jan. 7th, 2020 06:29 pmI love the movie this is from so much.
If anyone's interested, this is from the movie Velvet Goldmine, which was originally intended to be in part a biography of David Bowie, but had to be rewritten after he said he didn't want (himself or his music) to be in it. Here's some articles about it:
If anyone's interested, this is from the movie Velvet Goldmine, which was originally intended to be in part a biography of David Bowie, but had to be rewritten after he said he didn't want (himself or his music) to be in it. Here's some articles about it:
- https://www.brightwalldarkroom.com/2016/04/04/the-music-is-the-mask/
- https://film.avclub.com/velvet-goldmine-captures-the-spirit-if-not-the-biograp-1798243465
- https://www.tor.com/2012/01/10/loving-then-hating-the-alien-velvet-goldmine/
- (This one's a podcast, but whatever): http://www.overinvestedpodcast.com/episodes/velvet-goldmine
Procrastination
Dec. 27th, 2019 06:40 pmLast night I had a sudden realization (or I wouldn't call it a realization exactly-- more like a recollection?) that winter break ended the day after New Year's, and I only had six days left to accomplish everything I wanted to do over break. So, I made a mental list of what things I had to do each day in order to actually achieve that. Today, I was going to finish two sections of my biology lab report, finish up my physics lab, look over the questions I missed on the practice test I did yesterday, and make the resume I'm supposed to give to my teacher when I get back. Unfortunately, I only ended up doing one of those things.
Alright. What did I actually do today? I woke up late, looked over the missed questions, got started on the resume, and then got distracted when I was looking up details about one of the things I did. So I spent a few hours reading random articles, then played Stardew Valley with my friend for a bit, then went to go release a squirrel that got caught in a trap (they've been digging up our plants, so we've been catching them and then dropping them off a few miles away from our house). And now I'm writing this.
My problem is that I get distracted way too easily; I'll see a headline that looks interesting or that someone updated a story I like, I'll read the thing, and then I'll fall into a rabbit hole of news stories, Wikipedia, or fanfic. Then I'll keep seeing new (and interesting) stuff, reading it, and not doing what I originally intended to do. I wouldn't call it wasted time, since I like knowing or learning things, but I would definitely call it time that could be better spent doing stuff I actually need to do. So my early New Year's resolution is going to be to stop doing that. I still have a ton of things I have to do over break, so I'm going to actually write down (and revise) my list:
( my plan for the rest of break: )
So that's that. Things are going to get done. 2020 is going to be my year.
Alright. What did I actually do today? I woke up late, looked over the missed questions, got started on the resume, and then got distracted when I was looking up details about one of the things I did. So I spent a few hours reading random articles, then played Stardew Valley with my friend for a bit, then went to go release a squirrel that got caught in a trap (they've been digging up our plants, so we've been catching them and then dropping them off a few miles away from our house). And now I'm writing this.
My problem is that I get distracted way too easily; I'll see a headline that looks interesting or that someone updated a story I like, I'll read the thing, and then I'll fall into a rabbit hole of news stories, Wikipedia, or fanfic. Then I'll keep seeing new (and interesting) stuff, reading it, and not doing what I originally intended to do. I wouldn't call it wasted time, since I like knowing or learning things, but I would definitely call it time that could be better spent doing stuff I actually need to do. So my early New Year's resolution is going to be to stop doing that. I still have a ton of things I have to do over break, so I'm going to actually write down (and revise) my list:
( my plan for the rest of break: )
So that's that. Things are going to get done. 2020 is going to be my year.
Hello world!
Dec. 27th, 2019 01:36 pmGreetings! Here's a few things about me: my name's Emily, I play the clarinet, I love physics, and I will read just about anything. I'm starting this blog because I want to get better at communicating my ideas through text, and because I need practice writing about myself before it's time to finish my college applications. Also, I'd like some way to be able to look back at my past self and see what I was like: how I wrote, what I wrote about, the things I thought were important.
I'll probably try to post about once every two weeks. I'm looking forward to this :)
I'll probably try to post about once every two weeks. I'm looking forward to this :)
