I'm a Hugger Not a Fighter

I've been feeling kinda vaguely shitty most of the day. But luckily that feeling vanished for the couple hours I was at school for my exit interview. It's officially official, I'm a Certified Massage Therapist now! I've got my certificate and everything now. It's pretty awesome.

Oh hey. I should probably talk about my graduation. First I have to say there were waaaaay more people there then I'd expected. But it was also seriously boring. My brothers were smart and waited until an hour into the thing before showing up. I almost wish I could have done that too. It might have been less boring for me if I hadn't already heard at least two of the speeches when I went to last terms graduation. It was awesome though to have my best friend and the majority of my family there (the only ones missing were the sister-in-laws, the out of state brother and my oldest niece). It was pretty cool to have my name called and have people clapping for me. Also, cool was having Mom and J taking pictures of me as a walked back to our seats. I have to say I looked pretty damn hot on Sunday.

I'm fairly well sick of my class mates and I don't really enjoy socializing so we made a break for it pretty early on in to that part of the gathering. The whole group of us went to a restaurant across the street. It was the first time my best friend had been around my family in that kind of setting and I'm sure it was an experience for her. We're kinda crazy and chaotic after all. I got cards from everybody and a whole bunch a money which I wasn't expecting but I should have been. I actually know how much Dad gives for graduations but it didn't really ever occur to me that I'd be getting money, weird disconnect there. But dinner was a lot of fun and certainly more entertaining than the graduation thingy.

I only have my exit interview left now, where I'll finally get my certificate. WOO-HOO!

Going out to dinner with the best friend tonight. Going concerting with packmentality tomorrow. Definitely a great start to the week. Then on Saturday I get to go see Phantom Planet and Sunday's my Graduation. Pretty freakin' awesome week really.

It's starting to sink in a little bit that I'm done with school. I'm getting random bouts of glee when I realize I don't have class on a certain day anymore. ever.

I need to get some cleaning done before the bff gets here for to go out. But I'd rather keep IMing with siren_mage instead.

Things:

~ I heard 'I Don't Care' on the radio in the car this morning and did real life victory arms.

~ I only got 4 hours of sleep today as I had to get up early to volunteer at a school event.

~ I have my CPR certification class tomorrow at 9am. I think I'm going to go to bed in about 30 min.

~ It barely got up to 70* today and yet I still managed to get a stupid sunburn. I didn't think I was going to be in the sun for so long today.

~ P.S. the sunburn actually had nothing to do with the volunteer event.

I was working on an angsty post about how I don't always feel like I fit with the rest of the world and how sick I am of school and feeling like that even there. But my fricking lj client ate it. I guess it just wasn't meant to be.

Generally the books I have to read for school are boring and suck. But for my favourite class this term, Body Centered Therapy, they've started using a new book and I actually really love it. The Power of Focusing by Ann Weiser Cornell is a really well written book. It's really given me a different perspective on my emotions and I'd really recommend it to anyone dealing with emotional issues right now.

I'm skipping class tonight. My period just started and I feeling to shitty to endure class right now, even if it is my favourite class. I actually felt a little better just by deciding not to go to class tonight.

In more firefox news, does anyone know of an addon or greasemonkey script that can force a webpage to use a certain font but not change any other page?

I fail at real life. I'm being all avoidy on all things that I need to do - laundry, school work, cleaning, etc. And last night I accidentally got sucked into reading porn for hours. Seriously. HO-OURS! The only time I got anything done for school today was when I was in the shower! Someone remind me when I get home from school tonight I have reading I need to get done for class tomorrow.

Pretty nervous about starting clinic today. Not about anything specific about clinic but just that it's completely out of my experience and last week's orientation didn't cover a lot of the little things. Everybody who's had clinic already says that's good and that it goes fast. I do have a little niggling worry in the back of my head that I'm not as good a therapist as I think I am or as good has the others at school. Also I've been having to take my asthma meds lately and as usual they're making me shake. I always worry that the people I'm working on can feel that in my touch but pretty much everyone I've worked on while on my meds says they can't feel it, except the other students.

And to make matters worse I'm going to have to get a ride from my dad 'cause my mom had to go to the doctor today and she got sent for a catscan this afternoon. awesome. Now I have that worry running around in my head too.

Now that school is out for the next two week I've been letting myself relax finally. On Thursday I let myself in and ended up sleeping for nearly 11 hours. Which was just awesome, for once I didn't wake up feeling groggy just awake. Yesterday the most noteworthy thing I did was go watch the tail end of Dad, J and Chris's 3v3 game then go to dinner with all of 'em.

Today I went to the spring graduation for my school. A lot classmates graduated this term, people I'd been in class with since I started school. It'll be weird to be in classes without them. It was a pretty laid back ceremony. There was a slideshow and Dr. Seus quotes, their were less then 50 people graduating so the whole thing was done in under 2 hours.

I feel sad for all the people in bandom who only read about one or two of the bands or those people who only read one maybe two different pairings. Especially with all awesome long fic from bigbang. If you've ever glanced at my del.icio.us you'd know I'm not one of those people. I don't think I've ever really had an otp. The closest I've ever come would be Jim/Blair (the sentinel) and it's always sorta seemed like that was the only pairing in that fandom. Although I never really minded when some one got tossed into the mix with Jim/Blair.

Speaking of bigbang. I really enjoyed all the great stories that came from the challenge. I tried to comment on all of my favourites. I'm bad at commenting in general so know that if commented to your story I meant what I said and I loved your story. I added those favourites to my del.ico.us if you wanna check 'em out (under the long tag). And now that the masterlist is up I'm gonna go through it and see if I missed any that I wanted to have bookmarked.

I thought up a meme while I was falling asleep a few days ago. I'm trying to decide I want to share it knowing it won't go very far.