then the rain falls first
before the sun rises,
and I’ve seen you
after I decided
not to fall in love—
again
where were you all this time // ma.c.a
"Where echoes are silent, and
where words are loud..."
Enter
Words in Silence
“Sometimes, I hope people can always say what they truly feel. And be genuine about it. No restrictions. No holding back. No keeping all the most important parts.
But then I remembered that I myself couldn’t even do that. So why would I expect other people to be like that?
I realized that sometimes we have to choose what we only have to say from the words that we truly want to say. Every word doesn’t have to be said out loud; rather, let our actions show what we truly mean. Because not everyone has the time to listen to what we’re about to say, and that’s totally okay. We human beings don’t have all the time in the world to understand everything that’s happening around us. We’re all busy trying to save ourselves and live life the way we want to.
So it’s fine if you can’t compose yourself to say everything you want to. But remember that there are so many ways to reach those people who are important to you. And I hope you’ll be surrounded by the right people who will lend an ear to hear the stories that you’ve been holding onto.”
I wish I was braver // ma.c.a
I have a dream,
and that is to wake up
without worrying
where my life is heading.
Constantly overthinking // ma.c.a
“There’s still a part of me hoping for you to come back.” she said. “And until now, I’m still trying to let go of that.”
Pieces and Stitches // ma.c.a
“So, where do you stand?” he asked.
She suddenly looked at him, knowing that her answer might not be what he wanted to hear. She said, “I stand in between giving up and taking one step to move forward. I stand in between losing hope and trying to see that there’s still a beautiful future waiting ahead. I stand in between faith and lost trust. I stand in so many uncertainties, and I don’t even know what to call that.” she sighed and sadly smiled, “So basically, that’s where I stand.”
I cried for the first time in six months // ma.c.a
“I waited for someone who already passed through where I’m standing.” she said. “I waited until he comes. But he never did.” she sighed painfully and finally had the courage, she uttered, “People come and go, and sometimes we never had a reminder when—or where they are going to.”
I can’t go back to who I was before // ma.c.a
Sometimes we need to take risks, otherwise we won’t be able to reach our goals and dreams.
we will stand up again // ma.c.a
“What if I still ended up being on the same exact situation?” she asked. “Even if I made a different choice.”
Questions, I’m wondering about // ma.c.a
“I haven’t say something in a while.” she said. “But know that my heart is full of feelings, I never intended to hide.”
I don’t know where I’m going // ma.c.a
I was sorry for hurting people while I was trying to save myself. But, I wouldn’t apologize for learning how it is important to have self love and self peace more than anything else.
A Different Kind of Selfishness // ma.c.a
It’s a heartbeat, and it also means thousands of possibilities.
Hold It // ma.c.a
This universe will heal on its own way, even if it means blocking people away.
Everyone’s Winning // ma.c.a
“He used to admire me from afar…” she said tirelessly, “…but, then he decided to disturb my heart.” She had no idea, that she will be captured in such a short span of time. She hadn’t forgotten what it feels like, to let someone finally stay inside her heart. Then, she also remembered that it didn’t last any longer than she ever dreamed it to. She sighed heavily, and said, “How he ended up with someone else…” while resting her hands on her chest, she finally uttered, “…that is what I’m still trying to figure out myself.”
Obviously not Me // ma.c.a
I’ve seen a lot of hearts and different eyes. I’ve witnessed people change once they experienced how it feels to trust someone, but ended up breaking them instead.
Closed // ma.c.a