Babble of a Distant Star

Last year I:

• Found a job I really like for the first time
• (More accurately: found a crap job, found a better job suddenly wanted me, got promoted from production to the lab)
• Got my first car that is actually mine and not an over 20 years old sort of hand-me-down
• Started on my first tattoo
• Found meds that effectively treat the chemical part of my bipolar so I have a stable foundation to build from
• Got a lot better about eating protein, which has helped me get better at eating normal meals at reasonable times
• Posted 1 fic

I feel like in 2019 I made it to a sort of starting line. It's kind of a knee-jerk reaction to be mad at myself for taking so long to get even this far, but I did make it. I’m currently doing really well at keeping up with my job, being cheerful and energetic for my coworkers, etc. But then I get home and I have very little energy left. I am still trying to find a balance, build up some stamina, and I’m pretty sure this seasonal no-experiencing-daylight-hours thing isn’t helping.

I’m working on it. Life is happening, and I’m working on it, and it’s as good a time as any to try to spare more energy for writing. I don't normally do resolutions, but I'll make one this year: I want to post at least one thing a month this year. (I might make an exception for November if NaNoWriMo.) I just want to write it down to make myself accountable, I guess.

Posted the first fic for this resolution earlier today:

The More Things Change
Fandom: Yowamushi Pedal
Characters: Miki and Miyahara
Summary: Miki meets someone she knew a lifetime ago. She definitely isn't going to pass on the chance to talk to someone who's had the same experience.
Miyahara turns out to have a completely different take on reincarnation than she does.

Feeling stressed out with new job and struggling to schedule interviews and haven't been able to get myself to write on any of my projects. I'm hoping something fresh will help? So here I am being a little magpie picking up whatever looks shiny.

Pick one or more characters and a prompt!
A/B for romantic relationship, A&B for platonic relationship, and A/&B if either is good.
If a prompt is "thing 1 or thing 2" you can specify which or just go with the general idea.

Scenarios:
Modern Magic AU
Shapeshifter AU
Fairy Tale or Myth
Curse or Geas
Deal with the devil
Ghosts or Cryptids
It won’t stay dead
Doppelganger or Double
Secret identity
On the run
Injuries or Scars
Murphy’s Law

Relationships (romance, friends, team, family):
Gaining trust
Protectiveness or Rescue mission
Reunited
Routines and Habits
Domestic
Tell me how you feel (in 5 words or less)
Sharing secrets
Literal sleeping together
Failed confession (or other affectionate gesture)
Everyone assumes we’re X, but we’re Y
Courtship rituals
Soulmates AU (romantic or platonic soulmates are good, lmk if you want something specific like soulmarks)

Lines:
“Don’t thank me.”
“That’s not a good sound...”
“Do you trust me?”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I told you to wait!”
“Is that real?”
“Just breathe.”
“Get out of here!”
“I never stopped missing you.”
“I’m not even mad.”
“It can’t possibly get worse.”
“Kill it with fire.”

Made myself a Pillowfort account! (same name)

I'm going to try to get in a habit of using it. I really like the format! I'm still looking around for people and communities there so if you have one as well please hit me up.

Some things I have been up to since I disappeared:

Started doing nail art.
Learned to use Microsoft Access to build databases.
Built a database to keep track of the wear of different manicures and polish brands I've used.
(I love tiny art. I love data. This is a most satisfying hobby.)

Started using Habitica to track my habits, which really helps some days. If it keeps me flossing my teeth and keeping the kitchen clean then it's worth it. (I'm not planning on playing in a party for now. I can't handle my failure affecting other players right now.)

Continued the Sisyphean act of cleaning my living space.

Started writing again. Started feeling like maybe some of what I write is worth posting.
Tried Sportsfest. Writing 6 fics is better than writing no fics.
Won NaNoWriMo.

I'm going to keep trying and keep moving forward from here.

EDIT: I've been trying to tidy up in here by skimming through to mark age restrictions on old porny fic. I forgot how cringy it is that I used to just slap everything in the 'warnings' line. >.< At least that's one habit AO3 broke me of.

Maybe someday I'll unlearn my other fandom grandma habit of trying to fit my summaries in one line.

Once again, I shall try to keep a full list of any SASO fills here.
Playing along on Team Grandstand again this year!

My permission for remixes can be found here.

Round 1: 5 fills
Round 2: 5 fills
Round 3: 2 fills posted (1 will post)
Round 4: 6 fills posted
Round 5: 8 fills posted
Round 6: missed completely on account of travel+family
Round 7: I don't remember this on the schedule but sure why not?


All Out!!

Please Reply on AO3
Sekizan/Hachioji
700 words, G, love letter
That first love letter turned out so well, Hachioji has to send a few more. Sekizan has no idea how to handle this.
comment thread

The Voice Under the Music on AO3
Gion/Iwashimizu
1112 words, T, supernatural elements
Gion doesn't understand how sirens can be dangerous, right up until he sees a lure he can't resist.
comment thread

Tell Me Where it Hurts on AO3
Miyuki/Iwashimizu
650 words, T, blood, hurt/comfort
Miyuki just wants to kiss Iwashimizu's hurts better.
comment thread


Cheer Danshi!!

Depend on Me on AO3
Kazu/Haru
450 words, G, Fluff
"Depend on me."
comment thread


Eyeshield 21

Not Enough on AO3
Sakuaba/Takami
1030 words, T, Self harm, mutilation, self loathing, hurt no comfort
Sakuraba is in a good place with his training, with Takami, with life in general. Most days he's fine. Some days he still wants to tear himself apart.
comment thread


Free!

Inhuman Beauty on AO3
Nagisa/Rei
1900 words, T, Body horror, body dysphoria, medical, injury, amputation, trauma, trauma for everyone, in which Rei is not a beautiful butterfly
In which Rei undergoes an unwanted metamorphosis thanks to Alien DNA and Nagisa is there to hold him together.
comment thread


Hakiyuu!!

A Talisman For The God At The Spring on AO3
Kageyama/Sugawara
2210 words, G, made up mythology
Suga is a god Kageyama visits every week and subsequently falls in love with.
comment thread

Pink, Red, Orange on AO3
Asahi/Sugawara
3200 words, G, no tags
Three pieces of fluff involving a love letter (pink) a first kiss (red) and associations with the uniform they wear together (orange)
comment thread
This fic was posted after deadline.
And then I said all the words because Orange is the first thing I finished this round and my favorite of the three by far


Kuroko no Basuke

A Dragon's Shadow on AO3
Kuroko & Tetsuya Two
1560 words, G, here be dragons
Instead of a puppy, Kuroko ended up adopting a baby dragon.
comment thread

The Last One Standing on AO3
Akashi & Generation of Miracles
979 words, M, Character death, violence, injuries, blood, no plot only death, everyone is dead now goodbye
When Akashi says they are driven to eliminate the others, he means permanently.
comment thread

A Shared Weapon on AO3
Momoi/Riko
540 words, G, fluff
They both fight using information. Of course Momoi loves learning about her girlfriend.
comment thread


Prince of Stride

Coming Undone on AO3
Yagami Tomoe/Kuga Kyousuke/Hasekura Heath
2028 words, G, angst, past relationship
They thought there was a connection between them, but it's getting harder and harder to reach now. With this distance, no one knows how to reach out.
comment thread (Please read on AO3 for all 3 parts)

Delete That! on AO3
Yagami Tomoe/Yagami Riku, Yagami Riku/Fujiwara Takeru
1285 words, M, Sexual situations, incest, aged up characters
In which Tomoe receives some accidental nudes.
comment thread


Stella C3 bu

Last Bullet on AO3
Kashima Sonora/Yamato Yura
910 words, T, violence, sexual situations, Mrs. and Mrs. Smith AU
Yura in their bedroom with the last bullet.
comment thread


Yowamushi Pedal

Kamen Rider Victory on AO3
Teshima/Aoyagi
1046 words, T, minor injury
Kamen Rider AU. In which a very ordinary monster of the week meets the newest Kamen Rider.
comment thread

The Power in One Word on AO3
Fukutomi/Toudou
1097 words, T, Modern Magic AU
Words have power. It all depends on how you use them. Toudou has found a new way to give hi words to Fukutomi.
comment thread

Knowing You on AO3
Midousuji & Manami (Or maybe Manami/Midousuji)
690 words, G, Mention of injury/illness, Talk of death/suicide (kinda?), not anywhere as grim as it sounds
A small competition and a small moment to rest together. Midousuji doesn't understand Manami's train of thought but the final meaning is more clear than he might like.
comment thread

Height Difference on AO3
Imaizumi/Onoda
800, G, fluff, so soft and warm, height difference
Imaizumi realizes the two of them fill a romantic cliche, and then he can't stop thinking about it.
comment thread

Obvious Feelings on AO3
Teshima/Aoyagi
1940 words, G accidental dating, fluff
It's obvious to Aoyagi that they are dating, of course. Both of their hearts are in sync, even if they have separate ideas of what is going on.
comment thread

Get Back Here on AO3
Teshima/Aoyagi, Aoyagi/Tadokoro
1236 words, T, Cheating, trans woman Aoyagi
Teshima is hopelessly devoted to his wife. It never occurs to him to worry if it's mutual.
comment thread

Mirror, Mirror on AO3
Toudou/Makishima
1270 words, T, implied/potential injury
Toudou's magic mirror keeps showing the face of his rival and he just can't let it go.
comment thread

Hair Ribbon on AO3
Tadokoro & Aoyagi
800 words, G, trans girl Aoyagi, fluff
In which Tadokoro wants to help Aoyagi with her hair.
comment thread

Tangled Together on AO3
Aoyagi/Koga/Teshima
550 words, T, Morning after, established relationship, fluff
T3 in the bed with the covers all tangled around them.
comment thread

Let Me Take Your Ears on AO3
Teshima/Aoyagi
1260 words, T, Loveless AU, Sexual content, underage, violence/gore, amputation, assorted side pairings
Teshima is determined to be the one who helps Aoyagi get rid of his ears.
comment thread

Only for Emergencies on AO3
Manami/Onoda
1840 words, T, Graphic depictions of violence, injury, Pacific Rim AU
Manami finds himself with nothing but his partner and a flare gun.
comment thread

Invisible Ink on AO3
Miki/Miyahara
1600 words, G, Modern magic, invisible ink, anxiety
Miyahara goes to the Kanaki's stationary shop in search of a little privacy.
comment thread

I have been on a doujinshi binge lately.

This has led to me finally going through and straightening out the folder where I tend to dump all of my doujinshi bookmarks. So here's an infodump of the resources I have at the moment, and a couple I apparently need to look into.

It probably says something about my tastes which sites I have bookmarked.

Note that pretty much all of these sites have a mix of non-adult and adult stuff. Most of them will give you a pop-up asking it you're over 18.

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I blame tumblr. :P Because the Toriko tag was all "Crossover special! Crossover special! TorikoDBZOnePiece wheeee! I have links!"

Not subbed yet that I know of (I'll put in a link when I find it subbed, okay?) But yeah. Spoilers.
EDIT: Well, the first half is subbed, anyway. Can be watched subbed here. Hopefully the second half too soon!

And wow, I really couldn't hang on to my "write/post any fic" card, could I? *laughs*

I really wanted more Vegeta vs. Zebra vs. Zoro because EPIC. But I was stuck trying to plot out a fight scene (especially since I'm so behind on OP and it's been so long since I watched DBZ. >.< I'm sorry guys! I don't know your move sets anymore!) So instead I ended up going to schmoopy-town because that is were I live, okay! :P Even grump-face Vegeta must visit eventually!

Title: Waiting Up
Characters: Vegeta, Zebra, Zoro, Sanji, Komatsu, Trunks
Warnings: SPOILERZ!
Words: 900
Summary: It's well after dark by the time the last three challengers make it back, not expecting to find anything left of the tournament.

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Well, I found Toriko fandom. It's on tumblr. Maybe over the weekend I'll get over my fail and go squee at people like a mad thing and make a fool of myself.

As a side note, this is at least the fifth time in the last two months I've gone, wait there's more of [insert fandom] on tumblr! Me and pattern recognition, I tell ya... >.< I might have to learn to do the tumblr properly after all. (Maybe it makes me a snob, but I hate that cinched-narrow format for fic and the main thing I do is fic so I've been reluctant to post. I wonder if it would be rude to post periodic "what I wrote lately" things with links to AO3. Probably so, right...?)

My other side note is I really, really wish Toriko fandom had a kink meme. I'm not reliable enough to make and mod one myself. *wishes she was*

This kind of goes into my main point. Toriko fic is trying to eat my heart (the toothmarks have been there for years, but still!). The ROTG kink meme is way too much fun (and the Tintin one, though I'm more under control there, and I'm afraid to go look at the most recent dc_yaoi one partly because I'm half a year late but mostly the last one took me over for like a month). And who knows what will pounce on me next time I turn around now that I am frantically dragging myself back into the world with words.

So, in the interest of my getting stuff done, I'm considering alternating between "brand new, grabbed my brain" fic and "chewing on my brain for years" fic (aka, my neglected WIPs and promised stuff).

And in the interest of keeping myself honest, and to help me keep track, I'm making a list of the latter.

( Cut because it's kind of long and mostly for my own reference anyway )