Better To Win By Admitting My Sin Than To Lose With A Halo

💥💥 So my anxiety is peaking and I am still freaking out randomly.

It doesn't help that I am also sick as hell with chest, throat, and sinus issues.

The disability train is still moving along and I finished the first stack of paperwork that they sent my way. I'm just waiting for the next steps.

I'm doing what I can to get other sources of revenue for meds and other essentials, but I need help. I can't get food stamps because I am technically still employed and I only qualify for women's health coverage for NC Medicaid. I have refills on meds coming up that I need, and a few other things to make life a bit easier.

I'm stressed and this is doing nothing for my anxiety and my depression telling me I am worthless and useless as a contributing member of my household and society in general. I hide a lot from everyone because my emotions are all over the place.

I'm scared. I feel unmoored and just completely useless and like I have no worth.

Please, if you can donate to help, or share to boost the signal, the links are as follows:

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Paypal: [email protected]
Venmo: myliaroase
Cash App: $EternalScribe
GoFundMe: https://gf.me/u/ym5nn4 (Takes a week for funds to come to my bank, just FYI)
Ko-Fi: https://ko-fi.com/kaetien
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I'm working on some books, but it's slow with the issues with my hands and my laptop isn't always considerate or helpful with Google voice to text. I'm trying to figure out if there is a way to connect my voice recorder to transcribe to my laptop.

(I so need to win the lottery or something as I need to replace this so I can use Dragon or something. I miss being able to build desktops and my friends who had all kinds of laptops that we could re-do to work better.)

If you can donate or even boost the signal I would greatly appreciate it.

I hate that I keep asking, but I really appreciate any help.
I’m in need of funds for food, for my meds, doctors, and tests, for these doctor visits, and for anything additional they think they want to try.

Thank you so much, guys. for whatever you can do. I love and appreciate any donation or shares.

💙💙 I love you all so much for everything. 💙💙

I'm needing to get a few things purchased but am still struggling with the healing ankle and the really frustrating job search. I'm incredibly stressed at the not being able to purchase some of the things I absolutely need for day to day functioning.

I did something like this a few years ago and below the cut is a tentative price list.


( Price List )

All comments are screened. Just let me know what you would like and if it's for a reading if there is a certain situation that you are thinking about.

And thank you. :D

If button doesn't work, my PayPal address is: sehkmetenkare(at)gmail(dot)com



I would appreciate it if you would boost the signal for me by sharing links to this, thank you.

Fandom Snowflake Challenge Day 1

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Sky and Sea, Keep Harm From Me (1636 words) by Eternal Scribe
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Secret Circle - L. J. Smith
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Cassie Blake, Faye Chamberlain
Summary:

She expected someone to come looking for her, she just wasn't expecting the person that showed up.

Goodbye, Hello and Everything Inbetween (1313 words) by Eternal Scribe
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015), Star Wars - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Leia Organa/Han Solo
Characters: Leia Organa, Han Solo
Summary:

They spent more and more time away from each other and their shared home-- far more time than they spent together in the aftermath of their world falling apart.

For my third self-rec, I was unable to choose between two of my favorites that I wrote in 2016 and after going back and forth, I finally decided to just go with both of them.


Nekhushel (The Sorrow of All Sorrows) (5464 words) by Eternal Scribe
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Hobbit (Jackson Movies)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Bilbo Baggins/Thorin Oakenshield, Kíli (Tolkien)/Tauriel (Hobbit Movies), Thrain II/Fróia
Characters: Thorin Oakenshield, Thráin II, Fíli, Kíli, Thráin II's Wife, Fróia
Series: Part 1 of Whispers Connected By Stars
Summary:

Thorin died and went to the Halls of his Fathers thinking that someone he had come to care for very much had betrayed him. His parents know the truth of the matter, but they have to do some digging of their own before they decide to tell Thorin what he needs to know in order to heal.

These Shadows Keep On Changing (17477 words) by Eternal Scribe
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Hobbit - All Media Types, The Hobbit (Jackson Movies)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Fíli & Kíli (Tolkien), Fíli & Kíli & Thorin Oakenshield
Characters: Kíli (Tolkien), Fíli (Tolkien), Thorin Oakenshield, Thorin's Company, Bard the Bowman, Tilda (Hobbit Movies), Nori (Tolkien), Thranduil (Tolkien), Dáin Ironfoot
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Not Canon Compliant, Everybody Lives, Angst, Emotional Hurt, Poisoning, Mental Anguish
Series: Part 1 of Shadows
Summary:

In the fight with the orcs to escape Mirkwood, Kili is shot with a poisoned arrow. Rather than telling anyone, he suffers in silence with it as well as the reality that he is dying. Getting it into his head that his brother and Uncle would be ashamed of him and leave him behind somewhere for his weakness, he decides that he cannot tell anyone what is happening to him. He didn't count on the uncanny observation of a human child who was determined that he wasn't just going to up and die alone.

I wouldn't even be asking for monetary help from the internet if I didn't need it. However, I've seen how much good it can do when someone really needs help. I tried selling usernames for all of the journal platforms like some people did, but I only managed to sell one and trade five.

Things are getting desperate for me. I didn't buy my meds this week because I couldn't afford them.

I'll be writing poetry, fic or doing tarot card readings in exchange for donations.

I really need the money guys or I'm about to lose my internet and my cell phone.

Prices vary, but for every dollar, I will write a line of self-contained poetry. More than that and you will get fic with two of your characters that I will try to write to your specifications. Tarot readings start at $5 for a three card pull and go up from there.

Please help, guys. I really need any assistance that I can get.

If you just want to do donations, my paypal is [email protected]

No joke, guys. I really need any kind of assistance that you can spare for me.

Please help and please boost the signal.


Thank you,
Mylia

Dear Yuletide Writer,

First of all, thank you for wanting to write in one of my fandoms. Yuletide is one of my favorite things during the year and I am always so happy to participate. Second of all, while I have participated in Yuletide for the last few years, this is actually the first letter I have written for it.

Likes: Shippiness, friendship, slice of life, angst with a hopeful or happy ending, hurt/comfort, protectiveness of each other, people acting outside of their comfort zone, road trips, secret lives. AUs that don't change who the characters are, strong female characters, future fics

Dislikes: Mpreg, non-con, character bashing, shaming of anything, gratuitous violence, body functions kinks

I also like shipping of characters and do tend more toward het or femmeslash pairings. I don't like canon AU ships that come about by bashing another character or doing character assassination of a character to get to a chosen ship. I like well-done threesomes and moresomes. I like the natural progression of relationships.


( If You See Her/Colters' Legacy/Primeval: New World/Secret Circle (TV)/Black Ships/Fast and the Furious )

The thing I want you to remember the most is to not stress over it and have fun with whatever you write for me. I'm pretty laid back as far as what I get and I promise I will be thrilled to get anything written for any of these choices.

Day Nine

In your own space, create a fanwork. A drabble, a ficlet, a podfic, or an icon, art or meta or a rec list. A picspam. Something. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I wrote this this morning to put in sexycazzy's fandom_stocking.

( On The Outside Looking In )

Day 7

In your own space, share something non-fannish about yourself. A passion or a hobby or a talent, something that people might not know about you. We are more than just our fandoms. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


I'm a writer and a reader. I'm also an amateur Egyptologist. I love everything about Ancient Egypt. I was never able to go to school for it, but the study of the ancient world has always been my passion. I will watch documentaries about Egypt or some aspect of history no matter how bad they are. However, I have been known to yell about the inaccuracies to the screen.

An example of this was when a very good friend and I went to see King Arthur when the movie came out in theaters. We were both critiquing the history and she the fighting styles.

Don't even get me started on what happened when a friend and I went to see the first Mummy movie. She was military and so critiqued the weaponry and stances. I told her why some of the things they were saying and doing would never work.

These are two of my favorite movies, but it took me awhile to set my brain to suspended disbelief to just enjoy the movie. :D

Day 5

Stretch yourself a little and try something new. Go play in a new fandom or with a new pairing. Try working in a new medium. Or consume different fanworks. Give that new fandom a go. Listen to a podfic or watch some vids if you haven’t before. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it.

So, for Day 5, I wrote something with a character that I hadn't ever written before to fulfill a wishlist request for my friend, settiai.

Fantasy.

It's a ficlet from the point of view of Doyle from Angel: The Series.

Day 3

Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them. Afterwards, leave a comment in this post with the equivalent of "I did it!"

Yep, managed to do this yesterday -- and for two different people, too.

Thanks to kajivar, I'm giving the snowflake_challenge a try here at DW.


Day 1

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


1. My most recent finished fic is Truth Comes In The End (Virgil's Aeneid) which I penned for this year's yuletide challenge.

2. Written for last year's Small Fandom Big Bang was Wishing Only Wounds The Heart. At the end of the first movie, Mia is left behind to pick up the pieces of her life.

3. My first attempt at Star Wars fic with the idea of what if Leia found out who her father during her time on Tatooine trying to save Han? A Bond Unbroken