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i assumed i wouldn’t do this because i didn’t write that much in the last year, but i figured i should, just for continuity’s sake :-)

( here we go again )

( now playing: carly rae jepsen (who else) )

holding your heart hostage
rating: mature
pairing: chaeyoung/nagyung/seoyeon (fromis_9)
word count: 12,690

( aka my 00z manifesto <3 )

i participated in

girlsfest in april and it was really fun and refreshing to write some ggfic! (free from the burdens of ao3.) was planning on throwing this together after i wrote some more fills bc i have a whole backlog of prompts that i was going to come around to writing for, but i do not know how likely that will be atp lol. me @ shortfic: LET ME BACK INNN

( formatting woes.. )

( i told myself this would Not take long :/ )

arden @intofever
so is anyone gonna write kim lip/yeonjung for igff ⁉️
1/20/23

is it normal to imagine yourself getting mauled by the vampire you're in a situationship with...?: the fic

( stream of consciousness warning... )

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MOVIES 🎥

november 2022
enola holmes (2020) ⭐⭐
enola holmes 2 (2022) ⭐⭐½
spirited away (2001) ⭐⭐⭐⭐
princess mononoke (1997) ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
→ movies watched: 4

my friends wanted to watch enola holmes for some reason? i thought they were just so bad but i mean? it was a fun time i guess. if there’s one thing i’ll do it’s running commentary on unbearably corny movies. which was not the case with spirited away - which i also watched with my roommate, who was appalled that i hadn’t seen all the studio ghibli movies.

december 2022
bullet train (2022) ⭐⭐⭐½
guillermo del toro’s pinocchio (2022) ⭐⭐⭐⭐
avatar: the way of the water (2022) ⭐⭐⭐⭐
moneyball (2011) ⭐⭐⭐
before sunrise (1995) ⭐⭐
→ movies watched: 5

i think i watched bullet train with my roommate when we were supposed to be studying for finals. the end of last semester was a weird blurry period of time in general but i aced my cs final so hard after having the worst experience of my life (getting my wisdom teeth out) at the beginning of finals week so that’s all that really matters to me. bullet train wasn’t amazing but it was fulfilling enough for procrastinating purposes and lemon and tangerine stole the show fr... the rest i watched with my family. most notably i have this huge disagreement with my dad over before sunrise, which i couldn’t bear to watch in full and spent the a good amount of being appalled by the chuu updates on twitter.

january 2023
strange world (2022) ⭐⭐½
carol (2015) ⭐⭐⭐⭐
glass onion: a knives out mystery (2022) ⭐⭐⭐⭐½
top gun: maverick (2022) ⭐⭐⭐⭐½
tár (2022) ⭐⭐⭐⭐½
puss in boots: the last wish (2022) ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
elvis (2022) ⭐⭐½
the banshees of inisherin (2022) ⭐⭐⭐⭐
three billboards outside ebbing, missouri (2017) ⭐
kill bill: vol. 1 (2003) ⭐⭐⭐⭐
no country for old men (2007) ⭐⭐⭐½
the menu (2022) ⭐⭐⭐
knives out (2019) ⭐⭐⭐⭐
jung_e (2023) ⭐⭐½
schindler’s list (1993) ⭐⭐⭐
→ movies watched: 15

this month???!!! okay to be real most of these besides a few i just watched because my dad did. i probably would have never watched so many of these on my own, but he went on this binge spree of youtube videos picking the best films from 2022, so i got roped into watching the mentioned films with him on double speed. so basically now i know i could never be a film nerd...... surprise favorites: glass onion! it was just very entertaining to me. puss in boots! i went into this with zero expectations but it was actually soooo good. the banshees of inisherin - surprisingly funny/morbid...also very pretty. Women of The Month: cate blanchett, lucy liu, anya taylor-joy 💗💗💗 like idk what else to say. WOMEN

SHOWS 📺

the legend of korra

KORRA: [catches the car keys thrown to her by asami] you know i'm not very good at this.
ASAMI: you're the avatar, master of all the elements. you should know how to drive. [flips her hair] besides, it's relaxing. [cuts to her in distress due to korra’s driving]

i finally finished this after TWO YEARS. book 2 was that demoralizing i guess. i didn’t remember where i left off so i watched the last few eps of book 2 but when i moved onto book 3 it was soooo much better. like i wish i just listened to whoever told me to skip book 2 two years ago instead of toughing it out. [guy who is only in it for korrasami] also i'm pretty sure i only started watching atla because of korrasami but tlok ended up being so ??!! that i never ended up finishing it until now.

book 3 is definitely the best out of all of them though, BY FAR. like the red lotus kind of had a point don’t you think. [SPOILERS] one of my favorite scenes was before zaheer killed the earth queen when he was like “maybe i forgot to mention something to you. i don't believe in queens.” also i liked korrasami pairing off to do their own stuff. they’re such a good team sigh.... also i think i was less annoyed by mako this time around LOL like he’s just kind of funny why did i have such a big problem with him. [pretends that it wasn’t about korrasami]

i didn’t read the full post-canon comic book but i did read the part with korrasami vacationing in the spirit world 🥲

KORRA: my whole life, i was always told i was too wild, too emotional, too intense. but it turned out you could be just as intense as me. i’ve never had anyone in my life who got me the way you do.

abbott elementary

just soooo fun! quinta brunson we love you 🫂 for some reason i already have more knowledge about philadelphia than i should because of my one mutual from a few years ago so um. that's where i know gritty from. i kind of wish i went through s2 slower than i did because i didn’t realize it was still airing / that there were so many eps in this season. but i used recovering from my 2nd wisdom teeth surgery to binge the last of the eps that were out. i don’t see myself starting any other shows anytime soon because i’m so BUSY but i actually think keeping up with abbott as it airs will be doable ^^

warrior nun

i watched warrior nun in december but i just wanted to include these quotes because i like these avatrice exchanges.... it’s a shame the show got cancelled like literally right after they kissed - for obvious reasons (but also because warrior nun fans on twitter really be clogging the warriors search results)

MARY: trust your instincts, as long as they tell you to do everything beatrice says.

AVA: i’m down for some plans tonight
BEATRICE: well, let's hear these plans before we make commitments we can't honor

what do you want from her?
BEATRICE: to listen to me for once

AVA: what did she say?
BEATRICE: there is more than one friend in the world
AVA: what?

BEATRICE: i’ve trained my whole life for this. and sometimes i forget that you haven't. but it is my job to see you through this.
AVA: just your job?
BEATRICE: well, and my pleasure

BEATRICE: never spark a conflict until you have a complete understanding of your odds
AVA: mmm... i’m more of a, uh, punch first, maybe ask some questions, and then punch again kinda girl.
BEATRICE: yes, i've noticed

OTHER VIEWING 🎞

wooyoung’s fill in the blank episode: i’ve never liked a boy like this.... i thought this documentary was really nice! and i liked how it showcased wooyoung’s personality and his relationships with the important people in his life. how have i gotten this deep >.<

WOOYOUNG: even up until the beginning of our debut, i thought "this job is not the job i thought it was." "this job doesn't really fit me." but there's that as well. regardless, i'd done this job since my first year of high school, and this was the only thing i knew how to do. yet one thing hit me. "if this is the only thing i can do, why am i bad even at this?"

SAN: no but seriously i still don't— yeah i decided on my object but i'm not really satisfied with it. i picked my item and told them. but like... it's kind of like "can he be expressed with just this?" it feels like there's something more but it's not coming to mind

WOOYOUNG: did you see the one that yeonjun picked?
SAN: soil? “you keep digging there’s no end to his charm...” i thought it was such a yeonjun answer

SAN: i didn't decide on it but do you know what i wrote down at first? i did something like "voucher to use san for a day."
WOOYOUNG: they said to write down something that comes to mind when you think of me...
SAN: right, you can't be without me

WOOYOUNG: i don't like the other person feeling uncomfortable, so i think i make more of an effort. nowadays, i don't think i've opened my heart and gotten close to anyone. i don't think there are any new people. i don't know if it's because i get hurt at the thought of someone i like and have become familiar with leaving. but with new people, i think it's true that i try not to use my heart too much.

HONGJOONG: if you get hurt by a person once, when that person does an action that exceeds your standards, before you dislike that person, i think you would blame yourself for trusting them first.
WOOYOUNG: i don’t think i would blame the other person. rather than saying they’re a bad person, i would say “i shouldn’t have given my heart to them.”

safiya nygaard staying at every hotel on the vegas strip : can you believe safiya is the only youtuber ever? i really love her videos they’re always so well thought out and researched and executed. and a 2 hour series about vegas?? literally so good. makes me want to go back to vegas and actually experience the luxury hotels instead of just touring their lobbies/casinos lol

flover_9’s vlive series: in loving memory of vlive (2015-2023)........ the app that gave the fromies a platform to be literal comedians

the olymfics’ mv playlist: i’m embarrassed about my guesses now because i can clearly tell that the mods exist in a different sphere of kpop as me but i had a fun time sitting down and going through all of them ^^

wjsn fancon: chocome could do easy but could wjtb do hmph!??? i’m just kidding they both gave us everything this is the kind of content i love <333

warriors games: i actually enjoy watching games with my family so much wow..... the christmas game against the grizzlies was so fun (the grizzlies have the worst vibes in the league btw). if i’m not watching the games live with my family then i just record it and watch it later if they win which is so sad... (yesterday i watched the last few minutes of regulation/overtime against the timberwolves and it was literally SO BAD). i’m glad curry is back because he’s just so crazy to watch everyone else is kinda eh (aside from jonathan kuminga x_x). the vibes are kinda off this season and they have these stretches of good where everyone's saying they’re gonna “turn the corner” but then the next game they’re sloppy for no reason but whatever i can’t really care about any other team. like i’m sure they would do well if they got to the playoffs but the question atp is WILL they even get to the playoffs??? 😭 for the defending champs this is embarrassing 😭 anyway steph curry man so inspirational

sugar rush ride: this cb rollout was so exhilarating even though i only rly started paying attention a week until d-day. i was really excited though i listened to txt a lot leading up to it. the album is pretty solid and the mv is so pretty so. very impressed <3

i like you wooyoung fancam: [in despair] i’ve never liked a boy like this (x2) ← me whenever i look at wooyoung tbh

MUSIC 🎧

total scrobbles: 1,927
scrobbles per day: 62
most scrobbles in a day: 135
artists scrobbled: 129
albums scrobbled: 267
tracks scrobbled: 601

artists of the month
1. carly rae jepsen
2. angèle
3. dpr ian
4. txt
5. twice

albums of the month
1. nonante-cinq - angèle
2. moodswings in order - dpr ian
3. the loneliest time - carly rae jepsen
4. heartbreak country, vol. 2 - gia woods
5. the name chapter: temptation - txt

songs of the month
(edited a little because then it would be ALL angèle)
1. libre - angèle
2. wish that i could - umi
3. [redacted olymfics song (:]
4. avalon - dpr ian
5. moonlight sunrise - twice

other songs i really liked this month
1. disco heart - gia woods
2. pensèes positives - angèle
3. wash away - yena
4. love foolish - twice
5. heaven - shygirl

overall i feel good about this ^_^ i don’t even remember why i listened to angèle’s most recent album but it was a surprise! i didn’t think i would like it so much. and dpr ian i kind of stole from my roommate. the only thing was i kind of stopped listening to new music like a week into january... since the semester started i have Not Had The Time. but i’ve been using my new speaker a lot which is soooo nice. i feel like it’s just a completely different and honestly better experience than airpods. favorite artists to blast while studying: RED VELVET (they’re perfect...), carly (weddings funerals birthday parties etc), stayc (just the flavor of their music is so nice? eagerly awaiting their valentine's day cb ♡), txt (i need to listen to their whole discography actually because my friends showed me crown yesterday and the mv was Crazy to me but i liked the song haha), and wjsn (i cannot tell if they are going to disband this month but as soon as i heard that i went on a listening spree...)

i also made a monthly playlist but i’m....not sure if i like the idea of it. i guess to keep my current favorites in one place so i can look back - but even looking at it now it’s not even that accurate. and i don’t even feel the strong urge to listen to it over my liked songs. but oh well i’m making a february playlist as we speak so i’ll keep at it and see how it goes.

this is actually my first media round-up and if i do continue with this the rest of the semester upcoming months will by no means be as extensive as this so 🫠 at least i watched/listened to a lot of stuff over the break. at least i did SOMETHING... my next goal is to read one (1) book. and that's not even near the top of my priorities - if only i could knock some sense into myself and start studying for that *WAY TOO EARLY* midterm i have in less than a week....

( posting this before i change my mind about the entire order )

( does any of this even make sense )

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( it was indeed a spooky month. i was haunted by all these fics i didn’t write )

i had fun writing these, though i'm not sure what i wanted the original constraints to be. 5 sentences? 100 words? but i exceeded both so i just ended up on short as possible and vibes. i was going to write more but i asked for prompts and no one sent me any and then i didn't. i will probably do more in the future because i still have a few more ideas floating around but i am no closer to finishing my ficmix fic and i think i should be doing that rather than finding other ways to exhaust my daily writing quota (including bouncing from one meaningless dw post in progress to the next)

( rich text to html conversion is so disturbing )

for reference, because it's helpful to have everything in one place. and because representative animals/emojis are a SCIENCE. this could have absolutely not been unnecessarily tedious to assemble x_x but after tweaking my theme like crazy i'm kind of addicted. and im currently procrastinating making art for making other art (this post)

( 🦊s are ruining my life )

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( obligatory summer fic )

it's just about my 1 year anniversary of actually finishing my fics... #_# in celebration, i’m not finishing my fics ✨ i feel bad about abandoning some of these but oh well i only have so much brain power. and i’ve decided this year that my one (1) rule is to only work on things i’m enjoying and not forcing myself to

( notes app overload )

assorted starting thoughts

i’ve been neglecting my poor dreamwidth page! it seems unfair that while it’s very much enticing to spew nonsense about something that basically only caters to me, it has so far been a bit of a struggle. but anyway i've gotten kind of obsessed with fromis recently and i feel like i’m at the point where i can string together some rudimentary thoughts about them here - so i shall :)

this makes me so ??#!@!!? to think about too much but. i don’t know how to feel about Really being introduced to fromis through fic. is this just the person i’ve become??? no comment. (but also staygame i love you <3)

but before that, the origin story goes: i listened to weather a lot when my little society dropped, but i kind of just wrote off feel good after watching the mv. and then i proceeded to not have any interest in the group outside of the song. literally the same exact thing happened with we go - i distinctly remember being like “the mv editor had so much fun with this one, neat, good for them, etc” and i definitely liked the mv, but not enough to do anything further then deciding airplane mode would be the bside that would have a home in my liked songs this time around. all of which i’m actually kind of Annoyed about because of course the song that i first got obsessed with in late 2021 was feel good....a cb i was actually around for when it dropped....one i remember vividly tuning in for and thinking wasn't anything special....embarrassing. in the sense that i did something as unforgivable as having such a lukewarm first impression and not really because i’m super bummed or anything about not liking them back then

i haven’t watched idol school nor do i intend to. and as much as i would like to Not find out any more about it, it was also too intriguing to resist digging into for a brief time (that, and i had to get some context for this project i did which. i don’t know if it’s very #cringe kpoppie or #slay of me). i just want to stay far far away from survival shows though! they just...scare me or i don’t know how else to put it but i get the chills thinking about it. and the things that i’ve heard about idol school....well they’re pretty Not Great. seems like a pretty inextricable thing tied to their existence as a group, which is something i forget a lot, so i mean. it’s pretty interesting to dissect while being kinda horrifying that that’s just how it was

for some reason i was under the impression that the 9 was silent like the g in g-idle????? but it's not, right. right??? and fromis is just what everyone uses but like the 9 is official. and not silent. who the fuck gave me that idea. my brain is so fried from writing this that i don't even know what i'm saying....come to think of it fromis_9 seems like just another goofy 4th gen group name, but at least the meaning is reasonable (from idol school + also pronounced as "promise" in korean). and doesn't stand for something way more nonsensical and corny

on an unrelated note, in the beginning i was so enamored by the height differences within the group. i mean i still am, but i was really here thinking that chaeyoung was way taller than she actually is....but really, making fun of short people for being short will never get old <3

the members

saerom

first of all. um, captain is just such a killer name for your leader??? and romsae is such a cute nickname <3 saerom was the only member i really remember being aware of before i got into fromis, i just remember stumbling upon one of those pretentious pics accounts with and all caps user and initials in the profile photo for her a long while back and thinking that she was so stunning. so then it was pretty easy to identify her in the feel good mv, which she looks so good in btw (i’ve never said anything bad about yale in my life....)

she has some key characteristics to be a solid leader, but i really like the idea that she had to grow into that role. i remember seeing this tweet about fromis not being very close at the beginning but saerom made them eat dinner together a lot, which brought them together. saerom is the member who’s the most willing to go along with what the others want (they all know it, and are willing to exploit it sometimes). she also always seems attentive and in tune with how the others might feel or react, which is really sweet (like her first order of business at the supermarket being buying the members' favorite snacks, without even questioning it).

upon first impression she really does come across as cool/sexy/sophisticated but in reality she’s so terrible at games and has some of the worst luck ever and in general is just kind of a mess sometimes. the members are over here teasing her like their lives depend on it because she’s such an easy target. and she has this penchant for falling over laughing (like literally, falls to the floor when she thinks something is really funny). she also does this nervous/embarrassed/awkward laughter thing that makes her a bad liar and the members are well aware of it. basically saerom is fair ground to make fun of because at heart, she’s kind of just a huge dork and it’s very endearing

hayoung

hayoung is...initially one of the members i didn't think i would like as much. she just kind of comes across as the um. constantly happy go lucky type. i guess i'm not super into that archetype, unless i am. okay this isn't even making sense but across the board there’s sometimes a fine line between the type of sunshiney that’s annoying and can’t-help-but-like-them

that is all to say that my first impression of her was kind of way off. (and now i remember that scene from feel good where she’s like smiling behind the counter fondly <3) not like she’s completely different because she is pretty easy going and such, but there are plenty of aspects of her personality that i find so compelling that i didn’t expect. like how she's not only the group's designated Competitive person, but she's, like, /leagues/ ahead of all of them. in fact very few of the others will actually give it their all like her for the games they participate in. and the fact that everyone knows this well and they made a whole channel 9 ep around this is so funny to me. they were ranking members in terms of competitiveness and everything! and of course hayoung won the whole episode of her competing alone against the members <3

building off of the actually can be relied upon to give it her all thing, she’s just. very strong-willed and driven, but she doesn’t come across as super demanding of the people around her. instead she doesn’t even question not putting winning above helping the others out. idk i guess that’s what makes f9 so refreshing to watch compete in things at the end of the day. them being jokingly competitive and taking it too seriously sometimes is fun but it’s also sweet to see them helping each other out when they’re supposed to be competing against each other. sometimes being a sore loser/winner is an intriguing alleyway but when you’re opposite it’s just so incredibly graceful and i think hayoung embodies that to a T.

she’s part of the group of members that have way too much energy and even when she’s being weird or goofy, she still manages to be naturally cute at all times. i’m not even exaggerating how does that happen! other than that in the mbti channel 9 ep they were talking about how she has a very strong set of principles and i find it sooo interesting how she’ll go along with a lot of things until her principles are threatened. and at that point she won’t budge. like. WHAT IS SHE HIDING UNDER THAT SMILE. what would it take for her to snap and for the hayoung you don’t want to get mixed up with to be unleashed....i’m certain she would be scary, okay, and i still would like to see it. (remembering now some moment when the members were like “oooooo she’s really annoyed” about hayoung and they cut to her and she was just smiling. smiling!)

gyuri

i went from gyuri catching my eye with her slicked back hair in the first feel good stage i watched to thinking she wasn’t actually that interesting to well. liking her? the thing is i like her, but i can’t seem to pin her down. like golden retriever or cool chic city girl persona? plays by all the rules or is hiding a whole lot of things under the Idol Mask?? she seems like someone whose approach to everything i would admire, because she seems pretty practical and grounded. also like sometimes, she'll be willing to do some serious calculations to be the most efficient (in other words, do the least possible). for now i’m going to say that she’s somewhat of an enigma to me because describing what about her i like is just escaping me.

something i love about her is her DAD HUMOR. how someone (usually jiwon) will make a lame joke that has everyone straight-faced and gyuri will be over here cracking up like it's the funniest thing she's ever heard. that’s something that makes you actually notice her because sometimes she can be content to be more on the sidelines.

she said that she wasn’t cut out to cook once and i’m thinking about that and the cooking out in this cabin video where majority of the group was cooking, but at the end when they did interviews gyuri talked about how she knew she wasn’t great at cooking so she tried to entertain the kids (by playing games with chaeyoung and nagyung. and then saerom encouraged them to keep playing because she liked hearing them laugh T_T). it reads to me like she just has this awareness of her place in the group and while she might be in this weird position of being one of the older members but not /really/ occupying a more leading role, she's still very obviously among the older ones

also this recent thing from fromis day - the implication that there’s More to her beyond what she chooses to present is something i’d like to dig deeper into....

jiwon

everything she does is just. over the top in every way possible. she doesn’t do things in halves and it results in her making herself look ridiculous and i kind of love it??? i feel like there’s a very thin line between being so extra and it being likeable vs annoying and like. jiwon *is* annoying but in a way where despite yourself you’re charmed. she’s just so cringe and awkward <3 she just says ANYTHING and i think it’s very entertaining

i think it becomes obvious very quickly that jiwon is the designated loud and ridiculous member - but what’s interesting is that while she’s like that in front of the members, she’s completely different around people she doesn’t know well. yes mbti is fake BUT let me just talk about her being an INTJ....before the mbti channel 9 ep aired i saw people on twitter saying that they didn’t believe it and i was almost inclined to agree even though i didn’t want to. she’s such a clown within the group that this is almost a surprising aspect to her personality. i mean, i feel like i get the acting like a completely different person with people you know versus people you don’t. and ummm intj solidarity am i right....[dramatic voice] so often are they villainized....but i actually think it’s pretty cool that she expects a lot of herself and the people around her, and it really can influence the others because. well she’s their main vocalist. (btw i think about her cover of 12:45 a lot....oh god just the emotion she’s able to inject into the song. i can't say shit about vocals but this one hits the spot)

i’m also sooooo intrigued by how she was on sixteen, like thinking about her in a twice context is sooo. i can’t even wrap my mind around it. please still keep in mind my understanding of all these survival shows is loose at best, but it’s just interesting. how she didn’t end up making it into twice but ended up on another survival show fighting for 1 spot out of 9. crazy stuff....also that clip of her and mina and momo on idol school when they came to give them advice on like ooh ahh that interaction is fascinating and very sweet. THEM <3

she’s another member who seems like she’s in a weird position in the group hierarchy. she’s like. part of whoever they’re talking about when they say “the kids.” something i find insane and ridiculous and admirable is that she said she checks the weather on weverse through people who apparently post it there???? i got so fed up with weverse that i deleted it before i even got into f9 so like. what goes on in that app. truly

jisun

not gonna lie, when i found out the idol school rankings i was surprised jisun ranked #1. but even if i haven’t seen her in any idol school context I SEE THE VISION NOW. jisun is so effortlessly charming and it’s not even in an infuriating or cocky way. her charm just feels very down to earth i think. rather than being the natural center of attention, she’s very good at piggybacking off of the people around her and picking up on the right thing to say. and That is what makes her an excellent center in all things. in my heart, especially

her place in the group though is something that is very fascinating to me. she’s smack dab in the middle in terms of age but undoubtedly fits best as one of the unnies. saerom said in an interview that jisun is a really good mediator that can get to the heart of an issue/conflict. so she’s pretty rational and practical, someone that you can rely on. plus she’s patient and doesn’t get fed up easily - i just find jiwon and hayoung being shocked when she said she doesn’t even press the close doors button in the elevator hilarious. plus she isn’t fazed by anything and will be like the only one having no physical reaction when everyone else jumps when surprised by something

she’s usually really calm and collected, but i love how the members can get her to, well, not exactly loosen up but bring out her more playful side! (especially chaeyoung and jiwon) jisun is so funny to me, (part of the Won’t Let The Other Members Live duo with chaeyoung) and even if she is making a lame joke, no she’s not <3 i can't tell you for sure that it isn't the bias in me speaking but i have no idea why she thinks she's not funny when she's one of their funniest members. she does this thing where she laughs while she’s talking, which is on par with saerom’s nervous laughter, but instead of being like...loserish, like i said, she’s still effortlessly charming.

i just. find her competence at cooking so attractive IM SORRY....i watched a bunch of those eps of her being featured on an idol cooking series and it was a little funny bc it could be awkward with her being there with the chef but she shines so much in stuff like that. she’s thoughtful and perceptive of how to handle any given situation. i think maybe that’s what makes her the apparent only extrovert in fromis (even though she’s more like Borderline introvert). i also found her talking about liking spending time and doing stuff alone really resonating with me

seoyeon

my first impression of her was MISSING. because as i mentioned i was obsessed with feel good when i was first getting into them, and i didn't even realize she wasn't there during promotions until after i watched one comeback stage. and then i was super bummed bc then i couldn't watch exclusively feel good stages to learn all the members names. like it's not a big deal and i wouldn't be able to tell you why i was so insistent on feel good but i just felt bad...

i noticed that she really doesn’t say much when they’re all together as a group, which i get, but also i guess that led to me sort of overlooking her at the beginning without even realizing it. part of her charm is that she can be doing literally nothing and be really likeable (like. in that series where they went to a cabin in the countryside and were cooking. and seoyeon was hanging out in the kitchen and everyone was like she’s here for moral support but like in a pet way.) the puppy thing is so. but also i get it and it’s kind of cute. and in the same vein, she’s quietly clingy, like always touching the members without even realizing it. and i wouldn’t call her clueless in the "nothing going on in her head" way the members sometimes imply because i feel like she’s there observing a lot of the time

i think of her as a very focused and logical person - i watched the hush hush song making process and it was like. just So attractive to me how competent she was at all of it. (i mean maybe i just think songwriting in general is sexy. hm. must be the residue swiftie talking). she was so good at managing the members and instructing them to achieve her vision which was cool. and it made me look at hush hush in a different light, i love behind the scenes looks into the song writing/creating/recording process so much

also her long standing obsession with saerom is so cute <3 how she and everyone else talks about it so nonchalantly on air is a little funny. and it’s totally understandable tbh....you’re saying it’s not actually normal to be in a girl group and become obsessed with one of the pretty girls you’re surrounded with....sounds fake i don’t believe it

chaeyoung

my #1 girl, no doubt!!! i just think a core part of her personality is that she’s annoying on purpose and i love that for her. she just goes out of her way to be a bother or say things that could very well tick people off, but in a very like. obviously playful way. i think it speaks a lot for how comfortable fromis are with each other that she can joke around so freely, like i saw this post from reddit floating around the other day that was like “fromis are mean to each other :/” and the proof was just something that made me go “oh, chaeyoung” [fondly] every second thing out of her mouth is something utterly ridiculous teasing someone else and it's very entertaining.

in the vein of teasing the members, she's so good at it because she's just so observant and notices a bunch of little things. like how saerom talked about how she thought chaeyoung was seriously someone to be afraid of in a game based on how well the members knew each others’ habits bc she knows everything about the members. and she does, and is primed for any chance to weaponize that knowledge. she's also just so crazy detailed when she cracks down on someone, like okay so you're just going to do them like that on camera??? and maybe it's just me who's bad at this but she's so good at perfectly recounting an embarrassing anecdote. excellent pacing, setup, punchline, 10/10, always gets me

the more tender side to her personality is so sweet too. she really cares about the members and is grateful that they're all together, and she strikes me as someone who's like very sentimental about that sort of thing (see: camping ep where she started crying while they were talking about their first win). also this random tidbit from a weekly idol ep of her saying that it's so much more satisfying to share food with other people than eat it alone just sticks with me. like how she ordered a package of food and had it shipped to the other dorm as well as the one she’s in. it's so cute that she went out of her way to do that to share with the members even when they're in separate dorms and she was so so earnest about it too. like in general i think she's just unabashedly herself in every way

another one of the members who is categorized as having too much energy but also like. she’s always lying down in channel 9 eps, i’ve noticed. she meshes so well with all the members, though, and is like one of their mood boosters/energizers. and more of a side note but. a lot of ummm. fruitiness going on with her. like wanting to get a pride tattoo..... having no concept of homophobia..... (i'm not going to drop a "meow meow" here because i'm morally against it.) she just makes me go WHAT a lot and is so precious to me okay

nagyung

nagyung in one word: DREAMY. i’m sorry but i can’t help thinking it every time i see her. but okay i will admit i didn’t get the big deal about her at first!! but she’s grown on me so much. she’s like kind of a paradox: reads very popular girl who flirts like it’s breathing (i think about that edit of her in that drama playing the antagonist mean girl and GOD. [dreamy sigh] i think it’s so funny when the members randomly tease her about that role too). on the other hand she’ll be saying something she means to be inspirational or whatever and there will just be....awkward silence. like all the members will literally not even respond, they’re so....and then nagyung will bring attention to it and make it even worse

she's so dedicated to calling flovers dummies on weverse. insults as a form of affection > and also during fromis day she did that while talking to the crowd. for all that she can be confident and direct (with like. compliments), she also gets ultra embarrassed and flustered.

nagyung also has so much drive and determination, when she’s working on something she’s really passionate or cares a lot about. i think she’s an underrated player in this aspect (i mean overshadowed by hayoung in the same characteristics, maybe). but i have confidence that she’s someone who can get shit done. i thought her taking the lead in directing a commercial for that channel 9 ep was so sexy honestly. why is the moral of the story here just shaping out to be that competence really gets me going i'm crying

jiheon

i’m actually kind of sorry to say it, but jiheon is the member i found myself the least receptive to. i mean it’s not even her at all, i just usually feel so weird about teenage idols (this is why i don’t dabble in rookie groups where All of the members are this age or younger. pure pettiness.)

anyway that’s literally so dumb and stupid but also she's part of the “smiling on stage the whole performance” duo (with gyuri) and that just irked me at first. i don’t think i’m really that bothered by it anymore. i think jiheon and gyuri are the duo that comes to mind first for jiheon, which is kinda funny bc they said they didn't really talk to each other much when they were roommates. i don’t know why the channel 9 people are always pushing the old married couple thing (usually characterized by lots of bickering, is it not??) when they come across as older sister/younger sister who are chill with each other because they were kind of too far apart in age to really fight that much.

i think it's very valid that she is the smartest member, because it’s true and also there’s something nice about the thought of the maknae who is significantly younger than the others knowing stuff while the others are clueless. the members are always making references to her studies which i feel has kind of become a go-to, and has gotten to the point where it's like. school is assigned to her as a single personality trait. but it does come across to me that she was pretty dedicated to keeping up with school as well, which is very admirable. and it’s adorable when they tease her for it! their beloved maknae <3 they love her sooooo muchhhh. (and while she one-ups them in the intelligence department, she’s out here not knowing what spiderman’s signature move is. that is so hilarious and endearing to me)

as a group

there’s a lovely mix of personalities here and they go together but also balance each other out. (what’s this about the line-up being rigged? well maybe it’s for the good because the nature of a survival show doesn’t seem like it would lend to creating a group that gets along this well....) so often will they not let each other live, which is great, because making fun of each other as a love language <333

man i don’t even know what about channel 9 that has me so hooked, but i’ll also say that the staff are kind of a gem in the series. usually i get annoyed when fans are like omg look at how MY group/idol interacts with the staff and then proceed to glorify basic human decency like they have no expectation for celebrities to treat the people who work behind the scenes with them well....but this is mostly a different story anyway they just have a funny relationship with the people who work on channel 9 (see: chaeng announcing “yes, our staff are very flustered right now because we succeeded in one go"). when looking at fromis room vs recent channel 9 eps, it really does seem like they’ve grown closer and more comfortable with each other because whereas in the beginning they were pleasant and you could still get that same sort of feel with all the group dynamics, there still feels like there was potential for what they have now there. and maybe it's just the natural progression from the proximity of being same group for years, but there are so many little moments now that point to that familiarity. i feel soooo corny saying this but they just have good chemistry <3

i’m excited to be here to see where they go though! their music also seems to be going in a pretty promising (ha) direction, which is really all i could ask for. consistency + non-noise music seems like too much to expect sometimes, but not with them!

some things that come in threes (that come in three)

random moments

hakkoji the underdogs: nagyung agreeing to letting the other teams have another chance to steal the win right away without consulting hayoung and jisun - hayoung being in disbelief and jisun reluctantly agreeing only because they would be sharing the prize later anyway

after picking tomatoes, chaeyoung and jisun taking shots at nagyung when she's "gone" (off camera): "my complaint is that she wore strawberry socks to a tomato farm. that is like going to a samsung store wearing an LG shirt..." chaeyoung literally would not let the strawberry socks thing rest

a random arrangement of people on breakfast duty: "the four of us together makes me laugh" - this is just 4 minutes of gyuri, jisun, chaeyoung, and seoyeon making breakfast including them discussing ways on how to skimp on preparation (+ syeonchaeng are so cute here T_T)

miscellaneous rankings

in competitiveness (by me): hayoung > nagyung > chaeyoung > jiwon > jisun > gyuri > jiheon > saerom > seoyeon

by bias: chaeyoung > jisun > jiwon > saerom > nagyung > seoyeon > hayoung > gyuri > jiheon

how well i think i can recognize their voice: seoyeon > hayoung > chaeyoung > saerom > jiwon > gyuri > jiheon > jisun > nagyung

a trio of trios

00z (seoyeon, chaeyoung, nagyung): because i always like a good same age line! and i especially like this one. there’s a nice kind of solidarity of them being on the maknae side of the group but also like, having each other when they debuted so young

the competent line (saerom, hayoung, jisun): captain, vice-captain, and jisun (saerom's unofficial right hand man). aka the people who can actually cook. and can work together to keep everyone together

the short line (jiwon, jisun, seoyeon): in that one episode they divided into groups by age and the 00z were split up but then i became kind of enamored with these three. the way wonsun kept calling seoyeon darling <3 and when they were deciding on the mvp trying to one up chaeyoung who was carrying nagyung by carrying seoyeon together (and everyone agreeing to pick gyuri in the end). just seoyeon being wonsun’s baby, that’s all

i was going to include ships in this, like a bare bones selection of my personal picks, and i really thought it could be brief but nooooo i will write too much or not write it at all. so perhaps it’ll be a part 2. if i feel like going through the torturous process of compiling all my thoughts together in a decently organized way again, that is. not that this wasn’t fun to write! it just took more out of me than i expected (and formatting is so tedious. but also weirdly enjoyable?)

( ah, 2021, the year of my humble writing debut )

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