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4 Jan 2020 20:09
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 after (grumblegrumble) too many years away from LJ, I decided that the year 2020 was a good year to return, only I feel more than a touch weird about using livejournal right now, so dreamwidth it is!
  • i may or may not be moving my livejournal content over here. It means a lot to me, and there's some stuff I'd like to bring, but that also means going through everything I wrote as a teenager which, uh. yeah maybe not
  • i will, no doubt, be goofing around with the theme because I can, so if you pop over and they whole place is a wacky and wild mess - that's be why!
in short, this space is in progress, thank u for your patience

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 Well. It happened, I missed a week. I told myself last Sunday night that I would "do it Monday". Monday I said that I would "do it Tuesday". By Wednesday I gave up and admitted I'd just do a double one this week.

Things continue to be a lot, and I continue to be busy, but I feel like I actually made some decent progress!

Week 14 (1401 total)
  • Mon 30/3: 101
  • Tue 31/3: 64
  • Wed 1/4: 64
  • Thu 2/4: 37
  • Fri 3/4: 143
  • Sat 4/4: 343
  • Sun 5/4: 649
Week 15 (3044)
  • Mon 6/4: 124
  • Tue 7/4: 276
  • Wed 8/4: 512
  • Thu 9/4: 156
  • Fri 10/4: 582
  • Sat 11/4: 959
  • Sun 12/4: 435
March total: 10,321
Current streak: 57 days

March was my highest month so far, and my current 57 day streak is the longest. March was also the first full calendar month where I wrote everyday. This week especially has been pretty productive. I don't have week totals all calculated and am too lazy to go and check, but I'd say it's pretty far up there.

WIP-wise. I've been slogging my way through what started as chapter 6 ad turned into chapter 6+7 ish. I had too much in CH6 for my planned breaking point, and also breaking there would mean throwing out the start for the next big chapter wasn't keen on, so I gave up and trying to find the end and just wrote on. Now that I've finished CH6/7 I can start on CH8 and split CH6/7 into CH6 + CH7. I'll end up with two slightly shorter chapters, but I think it works much better. CH8 is a really big chapter that I've been planning for ages - very keen to get into it.

Plus, it'll mean that I can update this coming week rather than next. Hopefully having this chapter I've been so keen on and have a really clear idea of will mean I can power through it but I'm going to try not to expect too much of myself!
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 (I just realised I didn't make a post for chapters 2 + 3, might do that when I cross-post it to here later)

Would You Do Me the Honour
Dragon Age: Inquisition | Iron Bull/Dorian Pavus
 

“Dorian Pavus, you are my second favourite ‘Vint. Would you do me the honour of - what was it? Oh - gay marrying me so you don’t have to go back to Tevinter?”
 
in which Dorian’s visa runs out, The Iron Bull takes a rom-com approach to problem solving and Cassandra knows more than she's letting on.
 
the fake marriage!au nobody asked for (but everybody wants)
 

Chapter Four: Honey Sunday (of 12ish) on AO3

 Well. A week was a week was a week. If last week things felt like they'd changed rapidly, this week even more so. On Monday the Prime Minister had a press conference to announce our Alert Level status (something introduced on the Saturday - 1 being the lowest, 4 being the highest, we'd been at 2 since then). We pretty much all knew it would be going up, since typically the head of the Ministry of Health would touch on it during his briefing, but he'd deferred it to her. 

We didn't expect it to go up as much as it did. We immediately went up to a level 3: public institutions would close, affected schools would close, people should work from home if possible. Then, she announced, as of 11:59PM Wednesday the country would be at Alert Level 4 for at least 4 weeks. All non-essential (eg supermarkets, pharmacies etc) would close. People are allowed out of their houses for the necessities, or for a walk, but aren't supposed to leave their neighbourhoods (if possible) and cannot be within 2 metres of people outside of their household "bubble".

We're in lockdown. It was intense. All this and I still didn't have my test results. I didn't actually get them until Wednesday afternoon (negative!) and got immediately called in to help at my family pharmacy. I was there the whole next day as well. Friday I had to stay home and try and get through some of the work from my actual job that I hadn't managed to get through earlier in the week due to being a mess due to well. All of the above.

I'm including all of this because it's the context for my writing this past week, and also my plans for next week. 
  • Mon 23/3 473
  • Tue 24/3 400
  • Wed 25/3 410
  • Thu 26/3 178
  • Fri 27/3 431
  • Sat 28/3 189
  • Sun 29/3 435

I managed to do 400+ words on 5/7 days which given everything, I'm happy with. It was definitely a struggle though. Now that my March challenge is over, I'm going into april trying to be really aware of the fact that everything is wild and I'm going to be unbearably busy (still have my regular job - part time) and will now also be working as a trainee pharmacy tech part time. fun) and need to work with that.

I'm not having daily word goals other than 'any' to begin with. I need to set the bar lower for a couple of reasons:
  • I just don't have faith that I'll have the energy for it 
  • I also don't have the mental space for doing the thinking and planning that allows that - though I am hoping to take more walks and do thinking on those
  • I'm already a week late for my fake marriage!au update, and the next chapter to post needs a lot of editing (as do six and seven lmao) which means I won't have as much time to write)
I am also going to be suspending my "have to work on all three active projects" thing. Or rather, I'm putting both my nano and squishy on hold. Squishy is a fic I really want to do well, and the words I've been putting into it so far just aren't working. I need to take some time and really figure out where I'm going with this, and how I'm going to do it really well. I don't have that right now.

For my nano it's much the same. I've finally reached a point in the story I was really excited to right that needs to be done well and I would rather wait until I can give it the attention it needs. There's also the fact that I just really need to put the effort into fake marriage!au if I'm going to keep updating regularly.
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 Well. It's been a week. Things are moving so fast that even within the seven days since my last post, the world seems to have changed completely. I found out on my way back from my work trip on Thursday that I'd possibly been exposed to someone who had tested positive for covid-19 and given I was mildly symptomatic, I had to put myself into self-isolation and then go get tested. I'm still waiting on the results, though I'm pretty sure it'll be negative since it seems unlikely that I would have a really mild case given how immuno-compromised I am.

It's been hard to entirely isolate from my partner, since we don't really have the space in our house to do so, but I'm sleeping on a mattress on the floor and we haven't had any physical contact since I got back to at least minimise the risk if not eliminate it.

Anyway, stats!
  • Mon 16/3 444
  • Tue 17/3 576
  • Wed 18/3 349
  • Thu 19/3 359
  • Fri 20/3 337
  • Sat 21/3 392
  • Sun 22/3 324
While I've definitely been able to hit my words this week, and it hasn't felt as hard as I was expecting, I haven't really been enjoying what I'm writing. It feels stilted and mechanical and just not great. I know that having free brain time to put into it is a big aspect, so I'm going to try and make time for that more in my daily walks (which I will be instituting to stop me going stir crazy).

I'm now working on chapter 6 of fake marriage!au, which is a chapter I'm struggling a bit with (the whole first page has been highlighted as "future emm please fix this"), plus I'm due to be putting up chapter four soon which...... needs a lot of work. I'm also really worrying that the further into it I guess, the worse it gets.

I got heaps of comments for chapter 1 and 2, but hardly any for chapter three. I don't want that to sound like me whining or being all "give me attention + affirmation" (although, please do) and I understand that as I go through it's normal for this to happen, but I am worried it's because it's just.... not great?

IDK we'll just see how it goes I guess.

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 Well, this week was a success! I passed the 20k mark this week, which I feel pretty good about. True, I've not even reached half of the words I achieved in November, but I've been writing consistently for over twice as long and that feels pretty good.

Monday 9 March - Sunday 15 March 2020
  • Mon 9: 245
  • Tue 10: 240
  • Wed 11: 201
  • Thu 12: 240
  • Fri 13: 220
  • Sat 14: 300
  • Sun 15: 354
I have successfully:
  • Written words every day
  • met my challenge for the week (200 words per day) every day
  • Written some words for each open slot
  • Posted my March post (chapter 3 of Would You Do Me the Honour)
I'm pretty pleased with my progress this week. It's been a very busy one (been travelling for work since Tuesday and won't be home till Thursday coming) but managed it all the same. Getting that number of words out has been getting easier with practice, so I feel pretty good about next week's challenge of 300 words per day.

I've also had quite a few chances to just think this week. Been doing quite a bit of driving (often quiet) which gives my brain time to wander and plot things out and settle into stories without the need to be doing something else or listening to something else (driving is quite meditative for me like that - not in the sense of getting relaxed or sleepy or anything, don't worry).

Have a bit more of that coming up on the rest of the trip which is great, but need to have a think about how to get that into practice once I'm home. Might try and fit in more walks - good for thinking, good for mental health. Plus, as an extravert who works from home and who is immunocompromised and will probably need to be practicing social distancing in the near future, going out for walks will probably help with the cabin fever

(In case anyone was freaking out, going out for walks is totally okay and in line with social distancing. You're even allowed to do that if you've been required to self-isolate. Covid-19 is primarily spread through close contact with others, so as long as you're keeping distance between you and other people, and not wandering into a damn cafe or coughing over people, that's totally okay!)



 
 Well. We've made it to ten sustained weeks of writing, which I'm pretty pleased with. 

Monday 2 March - Sunday 8 March
  • Mon 2/3 140
  • Tue 3/3 190
  • Wed 4/3 218
  • Thu 5/3 415
  • Fri 6/3 280
  • Sat 7/3 281
  • Sun 8/3 865
All in all a pretty good week. Worked on everything in my slots, and got pretty decently over my current 100 words/day goal. Next week is going to be a minimum of 200 words per day which might be trickier. I leave for a 10ish day work trip on Tuesday which is going to be incredibly busy and pretty tiring, but I'm going to try and fit some writing in where I can during the day and also include it as part of my wind-down in the evenings.

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I did my end-of-month update last night, so I'll keep this brief:
  • Mon 24/2: 318
  • Tues 25/2: 96
  • Wed 26/2: 103
  • Thu 27/2: 219
  • Fri 28/2: 235
  • Sat 29/2: 661
  • Sun 1/3: 670
Total: 2302

I actually think this is one of my better weeks so far this year. A few decent days of getting more done, and breaking through a few sticky points. This coming week is the closest I really get to an average week - no out of town travel, and I even had a decent weekend to rest up, so I'm hoping for another goodie. I'm also challenging myself to write 100+ words a day



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 Nearly missed posting this! February having 29 days is very difficult.

I've written less this month than I had hoped to, or expected to honestly. Given the amount of study I had going on in January, and the comparative lack in February I was expecting to do more - alas I only wrote 6666 words this month (compared to 9081) last month. Still, that's over six thousand words.

I did miss one day of writing this month, but only because I flat out forgot, so I'm definitely feeling good about that. I have noticed that I've done a lot more days this month with very few words, and hardly any larger chunks. Part of that has been my schedule. Some days I haven't had a chance to write until just before bed after working or travelling all day. 

I did manage to post two whole things though! Chapter two of fake marriage!au, and Greer's birthday fic which I posted up today. Now technically, while I did post those this month, I didn't write or even finish them this month, so I'm not getting too cocky. Going to aim for two chapters of fake marriage!au in March, and depending on how I go with that, might even start working on something shorter.

Now that I've built myself a decent foundation of being able to write pretty much every day, I'm keen to start building that up. For the first week of March I'm going to aim to write 100+ words per day, the second week: 200+ words per day, and so on. This is going to be a pretty soft goal. If I really can't manage it then that's okay, but I'm going to try. I'm also definitely allowed to write more! Also going to try for an overall goal of 10k over the whole month
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 I did not get a whole heap down last week. Still struggling through chapter 4 of fake marriage!au (though I do seem to have made something of a break through) and given the intensity of my week (returning from the work trip on Wednesday, driving out of town for a funeral Friday and then back off on another work trip on Saturday) I think I did pretty good. 
  • Mon 17/2: 62
  • Tue 18/2: 125
  • Wed 19/2: 225
  • Thu 20/2: 49
  • Fri 21/2: 34
  • Sat 22/2: 296
  • Sun 23/2: 651
Also touched all my projects and posted a new chapter of Would You Do Me the Honour.

Now that I'm nearing the end of the second month of 2020's 'write everyday' process, and have only really missed 2 day (both of which I missed from just flat-out blanking on it) I think it might be time to amp things up and challenge myself a little more. While I've been so busy I have had a whole lot of days where I can bust out a couple of sentences max. This is okay and kind of the whole point of setting the bar so low that I can't fail. I'm still winning, but I'm also starting to want to make more progress than I can with this limited number of words.

Prior to this past NaNoWriMo I did what I called "endurance training" where at the start of October I was making myself write a small, set number of words each day which slowly increased. Once I was hitting the 1k or so mark it became quite hard, but I definitely found that building up slowly really helped. 

I don't need to build up as high as I would for November, but I'm thinking about setting some slightly bigger challenges for myself in March. I don't know quite what that's going to look like yet. Possibly setting myself a small goal each week that increases through the month (100 word first week, 200 the second etc) or week-on-week-off, or setting a goal of 100+ words per day for a month. I'll think on it. 

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 So. Broke my 42 day streak yesterday. We got some really bad news yesterday. It was my day off and I was supposed to be planning and packing for the work trip I'm currently on. Between having to replan some things and process and also shock and grief I was up really late and just flat out forgot, I'll be honest.

Mon 10: 153
Tue 11: 69
Wed 12: 232
Thu 13: 580
Fri 14: 196
Sat 15: 0
Sun 16: 316

I've been having some sticking points with the various things I'm writing, but I think I've got through them. Hopefully I'll get a decent chunk done these next few days (may be difficult given that I'm travelling) because I really want to finish another chapter of fake marriage!au before posting chapter 2.

Obviously I say every week that I'll write more, and then it doesn't happen. The trick, I think is figuring out how I'm actually going to do that. I think one thing is going to be attempting to do some words earlier in the day. In the morning perhaps, or during the day. Also to find some brain time where I can think about what I might write, so I'm not going in cold. The place we're staying at is in amongst a lot of bush and nature, so might go far a wander.
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 Short post today because I'm nursing a gnarly headache and need to go the heck to sleep.

Monday 3:
526
Tuesday 4: 144
Wednesday 5:
195
Thursday 6: 25
Friday 7: 152
Saturday 8: 156
Sunday 9: 98
Total: 1296

Not a lot of writing this week, but I hit all my days and all my active projects, and given the week I've had I'm happy with it. The semester is over, which means no study! I've been out of town for work and catching up on all the hours I put off while finishing my assignments, so I have yet to have a chance to make the most of the No Longer Studying Thing.

This coming week has potential, but I'm being cautiously optimistic. I have quite a bit of work to do and will be out of town at the end of the week but fingers crossed I will be able to catch up enough to dedicate more time to more words.
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 Given how close the end of January was to the end of the week, I figured my January update could wait until tonight. Haven't necessarily done a lot of actual writing, but it's been a week of feeling pretty positive about writing. Stats and thoughts below!

Week #5 )

January )What have you done this month? How have you surprised yourself? It doesn't have to be 'productive', it doesn't have to involve reaching or working towards a goal. It can be personal, fannish, professional, whatever - what are you carrying with you to build on in February? 
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 aaaand with 48-odd hours to spare, here is January's published fanfic (chapter). first thing i've posted in 8 dang years. I'm very proud of it.

Would You Do Me the Honour
Dragon Age: Inquisition | Iron Bull/Dorian Pavus
 

“Dorian Pavus, you are my second favourite ‘Vint. Would you do me the honour of - what was it? Oh - gay marrying me so you don’t have to go back to Tevinter?”
 
in which Dorian’s visa runs out, The Iron Bull takes a rom-com approach to problem solving and Cassandra knows more than she's letting on.
 
the fake marriage!au nobody asked for (but everybody wants)
 

Chapter One: An Elegant Solution (of 10ish) on AO3

(i may cross-post it to here properly soon but right now i'm actually supposed to be working and the nightmare that was trying to format it on AO3 last night made me want to punch something in the face so, for now you get a link. comments (should you be inclined to leave them) (please do) are welcome here or on the archive)

(also i had a look but couldn't track down any appropriate communities to crosspost this to - suggestions very welcome)
 we'll we're back at it again, four weeks in. 

Didn't get quite as much done this week as I'd wanted to. There were a few days where I'd hoped to get a good solid block of writing done, and ended up not having as much time as expected, or chose to focus on knitting/crochet/watching october faction (i'm about 3 eps in, will report back on that soon).

writing update 20-26 January 2020 )


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 Hello again folks, we're back again for another update, and it's quite a goodie this week. I spent the first few days on holiday, which was delightful, then back to work Thursday-Sunday to catch up on the work I missed (on the plus side I just realised that tomorrow's a public holiday so yay me?). There was also some drama involving withdrawing from a uni course that I may or may not discuss later.

on the writing front though, it was an utter success!

Writing stats: 13-19 Jan )
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Well, it has a week. In case I haven't mentioned it before, I have hugely overcommitted myself this summer. Studying full time plus a job that varies from 24-30+ hours a week. It's a lot. I did take a couple weeks work over Christmas and New Year, but was still hard at study.

Work started back this week, and I had two assignments to get done. The one due on Wednesday happened. The one due Friday resulted in a pretty substantial meltdown and another extension. Saturday I went to temple for services and then hopped on a plane to join my partner at their parent's place in the South Island. They've come home for a month over summer, and we'll both head back home on Wednesday, but until then I'm going to be taking a well deserved and much needed break.

Haven't done heaps of writing the first two nights here, but hoping to do a bunch Monday-Tuesday since I have an approaching deadline!

Results for 6-12 January )
Mon 6Tue 7Wed 8Thu 9Fri 10Sat 11Sun 12
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It's not been a full week since the New Year and my new writing goals, but I'm going to try and keep myself accountable on a weekly basis and starting on a Sunday seems sensible.

Results for 1 - 5 January 2020 )
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 Given that the entire reason I'm throwing myself back into the LJ/DW/general fandom experience is that I missed the culture and community, it makes sense to throw myself into a challenge that's all about fannish community, right? (right?). With that in mind, let's make good on the (only very slightly late) first snowflake challenge!

Challenge #1: In your own space, introduce yourself! Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


I'm Emmett (or emm, or whatever you feel like calling me), 20-something, queer, non-binary (they/them pronouns), and newly jewish. I am, despite my best efforts, a fully-functioning adult and Professional Queer (I have business cards) librarian-in-progress, and occasional sexuality/consent/healthy relationships educator (boy am I fun at parties). Both my brain and body get up to all sorts of nonsense, and I'm very good at being sick. I cuss a lot.

 I like creating things, and while I dabble in all sorts of sewing + embroidery (fanish cross stitch especially at the moment), knitting is my true love.

I've always loved to write, and while the past few years have been pretty dry (see: brain and body being weenies), I'm easing back into it. Both original (2019 NaNoWriMo winner!) and fanfiction. After writing more the past couple months I'm remembering what joy it brings me, and my goal for this year is to do a lot more of it (and hopefully make my way through my frighteningly large collection of unfinished or barely started fics.

I live in Aotearoa with my partner Spooner, my younger sibling, and our two cats Stella and Punk (and I am currently looking after a third who we have named Crouton).

I'll talk more about this in the next challenge, but fandom-wise I'm primarily into dragon age inquisition right now, though of late I seem to have lost my balance and toppled back into some old favourites including Merlin, Teen Wolf, and even a little ATLA.

please don't be shy, I'm very nice and would love to talk!

 it has been nearly 5 dang years since I last posted to this site. I was worried it would be completely dead, but looks like there's still some folks in my friends list still kicking.

maybe it's decade-change induced nostalgia, maybe LJ is just better suited to writerly topics that other blogging sites I've frequented, but i'm in the mood to be working on writing lately, and also in the mood to be writing about writing, so here we are.

I finally managed a NaNoWrimo success in 2019 (11 dang years after my last successful attempt) and while I've been nowhere near as prolific in December as I was in November, I've been getting a lot done and I'm determined to make 2020 the Year I Write And Post A Whole Lot Of Fanfiction.

If I want that to happen, I'm going to need goals, and if I want goals to happen, I need to make habits.

The Plan

  • daily writing: write every day, even if it's only 10 words. miss a day? chill out and make sure to get the next one

  • monthly posting: post something each monthly can be a stand alone piece, or a chapter of something longer  (only exceptions would be the months I do nano/camp nano

  • active projects: try to limit myself to 3 active projects at any one time - one original fic, one shorter fanfic, one longer fanfic.

  • planning: I keep finding all these fics i started and never finished (and then forgot the plot of) so i'm going to do a stocktake and make a doc of all the ideas i have an notes so i stop forgetting things and can try to work through stuff systematically

I'll try and check in weekly and monthly. not sure if there's anyone left out in the ether to read this (hi if you are, please talk to me!) but i like having a record none the less
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