professional bad example

all it takes is one person who thinks they can type people based on their behaviour or facial expressions or speech patterns and i immediately understand those who think MBTI is no better than astrology

seven is still such a bloody INTJ, it's painful to look at. it's like no, you aren't allowed to fuck up in these specific ways, those are for my own exclusive use!

turns out that the only thing i actually need in terms of relatable characters is INTJ ones.

what makes people assume that INTJs are inherently ambitious. that sounds fake. what even is ambition. ambition to absolutely avoid being put in charge of things, maybe

Fi-dom is an entirely different experience. Be yourself. Be true to yourself. Be authentic. Stop holding back. Don’t think so much about what other people think or how they will react, because you have it in yourself to make the right decision and do what is right. You are doing too much, stretching yourself too thin. You need to take time for yourself. You cannot help other people, or fight causes you care about, if you are exhausted. Save your strength. Choose your battles carefully. Prioritize the things that mean the most to you.

man i'm not fi-dom or even fi-aux but this is still so painfully true. i still so painfully have a fi preference, if a weak one, not a fe one. :/

pretty sure this piece of music was the only worthwhile thing about stargate: universe, and it turns out there isn't even an official soundtrack available

well okay, getting to make fun of all the single-word episode titles and insisting that surely running out of them was the reason the series was cancelled so soon is good too. also i thought dr. rush was a pretty good example of a somewhat unbalanced INTJ...

ahahaha i found someone who thinks twelve is ENFP, what the hell

thing is, they also think that nine is ISTP, ten is ENTP and eleven ENFJ, and these seem sound to me. not so certain about the last one, but i can at least see why someone would think so...

it would still be pretty cool if i were able to get a more professional EEG reading somehow. because what my neurosky mindwave shows - delta activity while wide awake - just plain isn't the norm. and you'd think that if it were just an issue specific to the mindwave you'd find far more people talking about it, but who knows? and yet i have no symptoms of any of the things that are known to cause this - being a very young child, having a brain tumour, having brain damage, being delirious, being under the influence of drugs, being an epileptic, having ADD/ADHD, having chronic fatigue syndrome... the only thing i've ever seen that fits is the vague bit of research by dario nardi that suggests that introverted intuition manifests in the form of delta waves. and that's really fucking interesting and i want to know more, damnit.

(it's like my whole existance is just a big collection of being an outlier to something or another.)

you know i never did figure out what type eleven could be. most people seem to think ENTP, but he's not nearly as worrying as ENTPs tend to be to me. that is clearly a totally rational concern! but seriously ENTPs feel so determined and driven and "better not get in the way of what they're trying to accomplish" to me in a way that i never quite got from him...

(ENTJs worry me even more though. brr, ENTJs. their whole existance is a sort of "what are you doing" thing. i understand them alright, it just also sort of feels like a failsafe broke somewhere and can't you at least try to be a bit more cautious and subtle about taking charge of absolutely everything. it's okay if that's what you want to do, but please hide it better, it'll really make things easier for you.)

yes i can confirm that this is absolutely 100% what INTJs do.

i remember that time when i was in my third year of job training, we were working on sewing or something or another and then our instructor got a phone call. a girl who'd been part of our class for the last two years had died of cancer. she'd always been a bit sickly all that time, but we never knew the details, she'd meant to do the third year as well, but missed weeks and weeks right from the beginning because she wasn't well. and the moment the instructor said that outloud, it was like everyone in the room just completely stopped functionioning. when for me it was like... yes, okay, it's quite sad that someone i went to school with for two years is dead, but making myself miserable about it won't change anything, it won't make her any less dead. there's no real reason i should not quietly acknowledge the facts and then carry on with whatever i was doing. which is precisely what i did, and predictably, everyone whined about how inconsiderate that was (towards whom? it wasn't like her parents were in the room with us or anything, and it wasn't as if she was going to be offended by my behaviour, because she was dead), and i outright said that if i wasn't going to be allowed to keep working, i was going to leave. and i did. if i'd wanted to do nothing at all, i could just as well have done that at home.

also, let's be real: she wasn't a friend. we got along well enough, i helped her study maths a few times, i was happy for her when she passed her exams despite much difficulty, but we never interacted outside the context of school. it simply wasn't the same thing as if someone close to me had died. because it didn't and doesn't actually, in the long run, affect my life much. honestly, even if she'd lived to complete her third year, i likely never would've seen her again anyway! you just need to be pragmatic sometimes.

it probably does come across as callous. i'm not going to pretend that i feel something i don't though, i value honesty and being true to yourself and what kind of person you are and what you value much higher than being pleasant and agreeable and easy to get along with. (hi there, i am a person who values fi over fe even while valueing thinking in general higher than either one)

this thing thinks i'm more INTP than INTJ. i'm clearly ni-dom and not any sort of ti-fe user though, so whatever.